best friends

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QOTD : What is your top 3 BTS favorite song?
Mine are : - tomorrow
- let go
- coffee

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Taehyung is doing fine. Or at least that's what he told himself and the other people around him, because in all honesty, he is not doing okay at all. Maybe that's what he deserves for hurting Jungkook.

And even though Jimin has always tell him that, no it's not his fault at all. Well, in a way it kind of is. Unintentionally. But he still hurt him.

But is it really unintentional?Or is he simply just selfish?

The second one suddenly make a lot more sense. Because Jungkook has always give him hint about his feelings. Is it really him being so oblivious?Not him avoiding the whole thing?

Because if you look at how they interact in the past, it's always giving away. Anyone who hang out with them more than five minutes will immediately know that Jungkook is so in love with Taehyung. It's like trying to hide a big ass elephant in one small apartment.

Taehyung can't be that oblivious, can he?

At the back of his head, the one where he buried his thoughts so so deep inside that he himself does not dare to dig it out. He knows. He knows Jungkook like him, love him. And he also knows that he like Jungkook.

But then why would he do such things as hurting his very own best friend?The person he had stated to like?

Self doubt.

Taehyung was born in a not so loving family. It's sad he had to go through that all by himself.

His family, you see, is not at the best state. His mom and his dad had gave all their love to his older brother leaving him nothing.

Growing up Taehyung has used to the term referring him as a second option, nearly sounds like an unwanted one. Had them always reminded him how undeserving of love he is. And it stuck in his head like a tattoo.

His group of friends when he was young was not the best too and even though theirs age was too far from being so toxic. There still are kids who bullied him.

And maybe that's why when Jungkook started giving him hint of his feelings, he tried to ignore them. Pushing all those thoughts aside.

Maybe he's just being delusional. There's no way an angel like Jungkook could love someone like him. Someone who is so broken inside. Someone that has a fuck up mind set.

Jungkook is caring and loving. He loves everyone around him and Taehyung learn to keep his hope at bay. Jungkook liking him is something out of imagination.

"You need to go out more Tae, it's been two years. You can't just do this."Jimin said in a tiring tone. Not that he's tired of his best friend. He could never.

But Taehyung has locked himself up since the day he read that letter. He only go to class and his part time job at a cafe nearby, the one Jungkook like to go, then comeback to his apartment. Going to groceries store every once in a while. But no more party, no more hanging out. And his friend started to worry.

"I still have a project to finish Chim, I'm sorry.You go have fun, hm?"

Jimin sighed. This is not the first time.

"You can not do this to yourself Tae. You think Jungkook would be happy seeing you like this?Didn't he told you to be happy?To stay healthy?"

And Taehyung stopped whatever he was doing.

This is the first time in a long while that Jimin has reminded him about the younger. Not that he ever forgets about the said male. It's just weird maybe?

He has not heard about him a tad bit too long and it's giving him those aching feelings inside his chest. The longing.

He miss Jungkook.

He knows Jungkook is not like every of those that come into his life to ruin it. But still he push the younger away.

Now, Taehyung is nothing new to life fucking him up here and there. But this one hit the hardest. Jungkook is the greatest thing to ever happened to him and now he ruin it by his own stupidity.

Taehyung really has no ideas if they could ever go back to what they were before. Because he'd be happy even just to be near the younger male.

"I know Chim I know. It's not like I'm not trying. It's just hard. It's not like I'm torturing myself or anything. I'm still going to dinner with all of you guys every once in a while, no?" Taehyung questioned his best friend back.

Yeah, he went out with his best friends a couple of times these past two years. But it's way too little.

"Alright I'll not force you about this anymore. Just take care of yourself okay?You know me and the hyungs care about you so much Taehyungie. We love you."

"And I love all of you guys too. I've never been more grateful Chim trust me."

The both soulmates then decided they'd just binge watch and cuddle the whole night because Taehyung needed that.

Have a nice day/goodnight moonie ily <3