best friends

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"How have you been, Jungkookie?" Taehyung started, try to start a conversation once they settled in his car.

"I've been great. What about you, hyung?" they are not as closed as they used to be and Taehyung knows it. And he can't blame anyone but himself for this. He's the cause of their friendship failings apart and despite how many times Jimin has reassured him that it's not his fault. It's hard to believe when Jungkook is too close yet too far from him now.

"I- uhm I've been okay I guess." And Jungkook nodded. If it was before the younger would probably throwing him tons of questions by now. If it was before he won't hesitate to show that he cares.

Not like he can't do the same as a friend but after confessing his feelings nothing would be the same.

Jungkook's priority has changed or has it? Only Jungkook knows how much the older's well being still affected him. But he can't show it. He can't show how desperate he is to know about Tae's life even after five years of them not talking. He hate himself for being so pathetic, still having that tiny hope of the older male returning his feelings. How foolish.

But without knowing that the said male is dying to hold Jungkook in his arms. To shower him with all the love he deserves. The love he was deprived in the past five years. Or maybe more. Much more longer.

Is it too late now? Does Taehyung still stand a chance of calling Jungkook his? Because right now that they're sitting in the older's car, the whole ride to their destination is super quiet. Jungkook was on his phone the whole way while Taehyung keep giving the younger male glances every few minutes.

After what feel like forever, they finally arrived at their destination, the cake shop. The cake has already been chosen so they are only there to do the cake tasting and decided the flavors. Since there is only a month to the wedding everything was pretty much done. There are a few things to finalized and Jimin want the his bunny to participate so he wouldn't feel bad. An angel indeed.

''Are you free after this Kook?" the cake tasting is done. Them choosing their outfit is also done. Now they are back in Taehyung's car yet again. Driving back to where Jungkook stay.

" I think so. I'll be free whole month till Jimin and Yoongi hyungs wedding done. Why?"

He's not so free. There's a project with his friends group going on, a big one but Taehyung doesn't need to knows that.

"Since we still have half the afternoon left, I was wondering if we could hang out. Just like old time.'' Maybe Taehyung should not mention the last part. Hanging out like before? Really? Because there's nothing the same like before.

''sure, why not.''

"I miss you."

That was super out of the blue and it startled the photographer but only for a few seconds before he relaxed and let out a tiny smile.

"I miss you too Tae."

"Jungkook I'm sorry for--''

"Don't, Tae please just don't. It's not your fault and it's been five years, just let it be. I forgot about it and so should you.''

The whole sentence hurt. It pained him even though he knows he doesn't have any right to do so. He is not allowed to feel nothing but guilty. He was basically using Jungkook to his own benefit. He knows the younger was in love with him yet act so oblivion to the whole things and continue to give false hope only to hurt him over and over again.

Putting him up there only to push him back to a painful reality.

"No, Kook I need to properly apologize. Maybe not now. After the wedding, please give me a chance to explain myself. I hate not talking to you. I hate us being like this. So please."

"Fine."

"Fine?"

"Yeah, I'll give you a chance to talk. But just know I'm not mad at you for what you did hyung. I mean I was super upset. But it's not like you can control your feelings. Liking me back is not something you're capable of and I'm okay with that. It was me who put myself through all the pain."

All those words slipped out of his mouth while he's looking outside through the car window. Because he knows he'll shed tear if he looks at the older.

Loving Taehyung was a painful journey. He was barefoot walking on a flower path full of thorns. The flowers are pretty, luring him in. And without noticing, he's already in the middle of the road. Going back or continue walking forward both pain him.

But what if the thorn suddenly disappeared? What if suddenly there's someone alongside him, holding his hand while walking through the journey?

Maybe it'll get better. Maybe that someone will help him heal.

Taehyung just wants a closure is what goes through Jungkook's mine. He shouldn't keep hoping.

The car ride was quite and it was not a so comfortable silent. After what feel like forever they finally arrived.

"I'll pick you up at seven, Kook. Please rest for now. You must be tired." Taehyung speak up once the car stopped.

"I'll see you then Tae. Drive safely." Jungkook gave the older a small smile before getting out of the car. He waits till the car drive off before entering his the building.

What is your favorite drink?

Mine's bubble tea and peach tea.