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Toji POV

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Toji POV

Song for this chapter it will make it better
ill tell you when to start the song  ♡
Killer: Sammy Wilk
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I stare at my phone distraught by the abrupt hang up.

"You know what?" I throw my phone to the passenger seat and pull out of the mountain top parking lot. 

This is the state park me and Y/N used to always visit. It gives me a sort of serenity knowing that this is my calm place with great memories. By great I mean great with all caps.

Y/N on the other hand… I don't know if I was lying when I said I missed her or not but man can she be stubborn. I have no clue if I miss her or her touch. I just want to show her that she still needs me and I still want to give her everything she wanted once.

I miss being with her and seeing her submit to me with little effort. Just the mere thought of being able to control her sends me into a frenzy. I know that if I show up to her door right now she is under my will and I fucking love that. What more can I get from that and the girl that makes me feel good.

I miss those smooth lips of hers on me and wanting to love me and me returning the love just as much. I have no idea where I went wrong. I just wanted everything to work out for me and that is still what I plan on doing. She doesn't get that if i'm on top of everything, she would be alright. I'm here to guide the way for her and me.

"Fuck." I whisper under my breath as my hand meets the middle of my lap. 

There is no way the sheer thought of her is just utterly making my brain mush and my new thinking center is my dick.

Back at the parking lot just seeing her pause under my touch and not knowing what to do feeds my ego in a way like no other. I just know the power I have over her and how much she is fearing what I am capable of. I've been fairly simple with her as of lately but man I can't wait until I feel like she is completely under my will.

-song start-

Fuck I love her. Not quite sure what love is but I just know I never want her out of my life again. I will try my absolute hardest to keep her near me and with me. I know every aspect of her being that it's crazy. It literally drives me insane. She tries so hard yet accomplishes nothing but a facade.

Seeing her act tough in front of people never pissed me off as much as anything else in my life. Aside from my father, it literally makes me want to break her. That's the thing. I want her to know who she is and where she belongs. Seeing her kill someone of mine yesterday specifically made me hot. 

I saw how easy it was for her to trip him up all because of her attitude and looks. Giving it all away to someone other than me after promising years ago to save it. Whether it was a facade or not I was furious but so happy to see her again. She makes me want to blow her brains out but not hurt her physically. 

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