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chapter 2

 I sat with sam for a good hour resting my head on her shoulder while she reads. watching her cringe makes me laugh "what's so funny?" she asks.

 "the way you cringe, why do you read I anyway if it makes you cringe,"."well since I can't remember my past I'd like to consider this like a blank sleigh, so I'm taking in as many new things as I can". 

"Doesn't it get exhausting though?". I know it's not any of my business but there's something about this girl that makes me wanna learn everything about her.

"Yes, but I try to think of it as an achievement unlocked like in a video game". I think I found her soft side. She doesn't seem so big and tough. "what are you smiling at?" she asks. "nothing just ever since I've been here you've seemed so secretive,". "secretive you say? I mean I'd like to consider myself the quiet type." She says with a smirk.  

"Same thing to me" I say confidently. Sam rolls her eye's and smiles but turns to face the hall so I wouldn't notice."you should probably head to Doctor Maris its 10:50. I look at the clock and look back at sam with confusion. "how'd you know I had therapy at 11". She pointed behind me "chart dummy". I slap myself in my head thinking now she probably thinks I think she likes me. 

I mean who cares anyway this isn't middle school. I try to reassure myself while I look for dr.Maris's office. I walked down a few halls till I reached a hall with double doors and a sign "Dr.Maris's office". I knock feeling anxious, the doors open and I see Dr.Maris greeting me in and gesturing to another set of doors to the side of her office.

I hesitantly walk in and see a missive room with a ceiling to floor window with a nice desk with a seating area. "this is where I prefer to have therapy with my older patients" she reassures me. I nod and take a seat in the white chair. "So earlier you remembered how you played the violin, correct?". "I did" I said trying to remember as much as I can from that.

"MA I can tell you some information that I know". I look up in suspense.

 "Your birthday is March 10, 2001, your parents past away in the accident, you were named after one of your grandma. Does that remind you of anything?". I shake my head. 

I was getting frustrated why the hell cant I remember anything "MA it's ok this is only your first session". "why can't I remember anything, why can't you just tell me?!". "I'f I could I would but the mind cannot process as quickly as you think, here write down what comes to mind". I nod and take the paper and pen she hands me. 

I tap the pen three times and try to think. "why did you tap the pen 3 times,". "because my father said it was good luck".

 Doctor Maris smiles at me. "my dad..." I think to myself. "do you remember when he told you this?". "umm...yes, we had just bought a new house and my father tapped the pen three times for good luck". 

"Very well MA, you've been doing very good improvement". I smile in relief as a feeling of serationin hits me. "we will continue our session next week, you should write down any small details you can recall to see if we can remember anything". I nod and walk out. 

As I walk down the hall I hear a violin playing. I walk down the empty hall to the door and see a guy with dark brown hair, black sweats and a white shirt. I don't say anything I just listen and take small notes in my head of what he could improve on. 

"Stalking kai I see" a male voice says behind me. "SP you scared the shit out of me" I say annoyed. "aw don't take it personally, If you ever plan on leaving I suggest staying away from kai, I love him but he has a reputation here and I don't want to see you get stuck here too". I just look at him and give him a reassuring smile. 

"I reacted the same way when sam told me, I don't mean it to be disrespectful I just don't want you to make the mistakes we did". Sp says as he walks away. 

Sp's words replayed in my head. I decided to go out and get some fresh air. I put on y running shoes and run the field outside. I don't remember my connection to running but it makes me feel at peace. I find it to be the best way to process so far. 

I was out on the field for maybe half an hour before I got too tired. Making my way back inside I was approached by sam. "how did therapy go?". I sighed "exhausting but overall I learned a bit more about myself,". 

"Oh yeah like what," "well for one I played violin in high school". Sam just smiled and we walked to dinner. SP and Rebecca were sitting waiting for us.

 "why are their children here?"  I ask looking around to the kids running all over the place. "therapy just like us, we work with them and it's beneficial for the kids and us". "How so?" I ask curious. 

"we'll the kids work on small projects with us mostly arts and crafts or we put on shows with them". I find it nice, I don't remember if I had younger siblings maybe I could ask Dr.Maris. I just remembered what she told me about my parent's. I know I should feel for my parents but I don't even remember them. 

"What's on your mind?" sam asks me while everyone is in their own little bubble talking. "do you feel bad for the people you've lost but don't remember, should I feel something?". Sam took a second in her thoughts. "when I found out my mom died it took me a while to process, but even then I didn't have anything to miss". 

After dinner I took sometime to myself to think. Why aren't I in a normal hospital I thought to myself? I don't want to think negatively but what even is this place. I've Never heard of a facility for people who've lost there memory, and why cant I remember what the outside world is like. What year is it or where I am. I needed to find out but something told me I would have to do this on my own. 

I decide to go down to the studio and play the violin, might as well keep me equipped before I drive myself crazy. Having a violin in my hands is so refreshing. Without hesitation I started playing. I feel someone's presence in the room but don't bother to look. A few minutes go by and I hear a chair being pulled out. 

"I'm sorry I tried to be as quiet as possible, you play beautifully" the guy says nervously. "do you play?" I ask. He nods and I just chuckle. "my name is kai by the way". I stop what I was doing and look at him. "so your the one everyone's been talking about huh, well your quite famous here". Dr. Maris walks in.

"It's getting late you two, you both should head to your room". I nod and walk up the stair. "I never got your name?" kia says. "Morgan" I say, it took me a moment to realize what I had just said.

 Dr. Maris looks at me and smiles. "my name is Morgan!" I say excited. Dr. Maris nods and pats my shoulder. "time to head to bed, Morgan". I smile and walk to my room, on my way there I see sam. 

"Are you stalking me" I say jokingly. "I would but you don't seem worth the time" she says giggling. I pretended to be offended and gasped. "you seem to be in a good mood,". I smile and nod. "you'll never believe what happened. I told Sam everything and she was happy for me. "so Morgan, what do you want to find out now".

"I'm not sure if I'm being completely honest" I say. "I'll see you tomorrow, you should get some rest you've had quiet the first day here". I agreed and walked to bed.

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