Marauders Tales

Part of the truth

~Lily's POV~

Ok now this is peculiar, Remus hasn't been this quiet around me since, well since the day I met him. Which for him is actually more than just peculiar it's verging on the edge of worrying so I guess it's time to pull out the old Lily charm, or should I say my special stare/glare (it could be considered either depending on whether it's aimed at you or not).

As soon as I start staring at him I can feel him moving under my gaze, which is also unusual considering he's always composed. Right somethings definitely up. "Ok then what the hell is messing with that marvellous mind of yours Remus? Because whatever it is has seriously done a number on you and I want to help if I can."

He looks at me uncertainly, the same way he looked at me when he tried to slip out of telling me where he disappears to every month and why it is that he does so. Not that it matters now considering I'm not stupid and I do actually pay attention in class, both to the teacher and what is happening in my surroundings, for example now, it's so late there is no one else in the common room so... "if you're thinking about the fact that you're a werewolf and that the full moon is just around the corner I'm happy to support you through that you know." I say, hoping to sound both smug and comforting at the same time.

"Ohhhhh I-I ermmm well" he stutters weakly before it sinks in "WHAT THE HELL?! HOW ON EARTH DO YOU KNOW ABOUT THAT?!" He practically screams, it's just as well the common room is sound proof isn't it? It has its purposes after all, allowing the members of Gryffindor to sleep through anything whether that be werewolves being exposed by friends or raging parties to celebrate just about anything.... And there goes my train of thought, honestly I may have read Hogwarts a History a few too many times, if that's even possible-

"You dummy, did you really think that I'd not figure it out, we're the smartest in our year Remus come on. What with you disappearing once a month, every month, for a whole week and at some point during that week there be a full moon, I mean realistically what are the chances. Oh and can I just say what happened in DADA was a dead give away oh and-"

"Okay, okay I get the picture I haven't been very subtle." He says to me, face still shocked but eyes constantly scanning the room and glancing towards the doors leading to the dorms as though someone may pop out and about monster any second. "Stop panicking you fool, you really think I'd expose you if I didn't know the area was empty and safe, can't have you being kicked out now then can we?"

At this his face lights up, his grin taking over his face, "y-you don't want me gone, y-you're ok with what I am? Why I'm a literal monster disguised and walking amongst every normal, safe student and professor every day."

"Honestly you muppet, you really think that I'd confront you or still be friends with you, considering I've known for over a month, if I wanted you gone? You're literally the opposite of a monster Remus you're so soft, sweet and gentle, it's the wolf inside that is different, possibly dangerous and harsh but it's not your fault and it doesn't define you in any way! Remus you are your own person, don't let the Wolf try and take that away from you, please!" Ok so I may have forgotten how late it was and how much emotion I just put into words because at this point we're both crying (don't ask why I am, I get emotional over the slightest of things and supporting a friend who thought I'd hate them has definitely done the trick of opening the waterfalls)

"I-I just, never thought I could have friends wh-who knew my secret at school, I th-thought that everyone would hate me, want me out of school or worse, k-killed for being what I am. Th-thank you Lils I really needed that. I know you're not much of a hugger, but can we, just really quickly?" He says through the tears, I nod quickly because as much as I don't do hugs, we both really need this. We come into the embrace and stay there for a lengthy amount of time, basically until we've stopped crying but even after that we turn to face the fire all snuggled up.

We stay like that for a while more before he looks down at me (yes I'm flipping short get over it) "thank you, you're the best friend someone could ask for, you know that right?"

Smiling I look up and meet his gaze "well I am pretty amazing aren't I?" I say cheekily making us both chuckle.

Ugh why is it so comfortable by the fire? All I want to do is fall asleep here but 1. People i.e. James, Marlene, Dorcas, Alice and just about everyone else in Gryffindor would get the wrong idea considering Remus is also here 2. I have my cat make up on still 3. I want to sleep in my bed knowing my back won't be aching tomorrow 4. I want to go to sleep knowing the Remus is comfortable considering the full moon is coming and he's bound to start feeling like shite again soon sooo I guess I'll have to be the person to voice this considering Remus is literally drifting off now. "Hey you, don't fall asleep on me! If you're transforming soon I want you well rested and that means no aching joints from falling asleep on a sofa, even if it is this comfy one. Come on let's get some sleep yeah?" With that he slowly nods himself awake and stumbles behind me to the stairs of our dorms, once I get through my door I immediately get into my pjs and practically dive into my bed straight into dream land.

~Remus's POV~

Once I've said goodnight to Lily I head towards my dorm finding it oddly quiet. If they had alcohol like they said they would then, well things should be a whole lot louder, unless they snuck out past Lily and I, wait no what if they heard our conversation and James and Peter won't look at me the same ever again? What if they talk Sirius into seeing the monster in me and I lose him as well? I can't lose him!

Agh right I must calm myself, my thoughts are a load of rubbish, they could've easily decided to call it a night early or be so drunk that they've passed out. Yeah I like that last option best then there's no stupid questions about what I was doing and then I don't have to lie to them. I finally gain the courage to open to door to find the window shoved open, alcohol bottles strewn all over the floor and a sleeping Peter curled on his bed. I look further about the room only to find James basically passed out on his bed and then Sirius's bed with it's hangings drawn around it but a quiet sound coming from within, no it's not snoring. I quietly close the door and creep towards the bathroom door hoping not to disturb whatever he's doing in there.

Once I am ready for bed I cautiously open the door again and tiptoe to my bed, which is stupidly the other side of the dorm to the door. As I'm headed past Sirius's bed the noise is louder, it sounds like, crying? Nope it sounds more like full on sobbing, the poor thing, I wonder what's wrong? Maybe I should go and check on him? No I couldn't because for all I know it's because he's well and truly drunk and his emotions are no longer his. I mean it's more than possible that that's all it it especially considering that's what happens to my dad quite a lot after he found out I had been bitten, he went out drinking to cope but then couldn't quite handle the other emotions that come with it. Ahhh yes Lyall the number one father of the year, not!

Ok nope that's it I don't care if it's just a side affect of his stupidity I'm going in. I mean I have to check on him he's my best mate, who I just so happen to have feelings for, what could go wrong?

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Heyyyy there might not be much of an update for a little while because ✨school✨ which also means it'll become single updates at a time but yeah. Thank you to the 2 people who are reading this it means a lot that you choose to go on this 'journey' with me!

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