Deadly Obsession

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I walked through the park with Alex. It was nice to be able to take a walk with him and catch up. I missed him and I always felt like I could talk to him about anything. He kept asking me if everything was OK. That was the one thing that I hated about Alex. It was the fact that I couldn't hide anything from him. He always saw right through me no matter how much I tried to disguise the truth. The words were on the tip of my tongue but I could never form the sentence. I wanted to tell him about what happened between me and Jake but another part of me couldn't. I've been grateful that Jake has left me alone. And I fear that if I started talking about him, I would summon him. For some odd reason, he has decided to just disappear. He hasn't come by my house and he hasn't tried to reach me at all. Everything seems to be getting back to normal. And that's the only thing that I want so I figured that it would be a good idea not to mention it.

"Are you sure that you're, OK?"

"Yes, why wouldn't I be?"

"I don't know. It just seems like something has been bothering you. You haven't been yourself these last few days and it's been hard for me to get you to come out. Don't lie to me, Rosey. What's going on?"

"Nothing, it's nothing important. I've been working my butt off these last few days. The final exams are coming up and I just want to be perfect. These count for 80% of our grade and I want to remain on the Dean's list."

He chuckled; "you can't stress yourself about stuff like that. You need to enjoy life as much as you can. And besides, you're smart as hell. There's no doubt in my mind that you're going to pass the exams with flying colors."

I looked down at my feet and smiled. "Thank you so much that means so much to me. I've really been working hard and it's been challenging. But once these exams are over, I can finally get back to resting my brain. My brain has been under a lot of stress but I think I'm starting to feel better."

"That's good I'm glad to hear that. By the way, are you going to that Halloween party Friday?"

"Yeah, I have no choice. You already know that Melina is dragging me. But I think it will be fine and I'm trying to make the best out of it."

He laughed, "you trying to make the best out of Halloween? You hate Halloween and we all know that."

"Yes, I know. But I'm trying to be more open. It's not easy but I'm trying to work on it and I think that life changes and I need to roll with the change."

He shrugged, "yeah, you're right about that. But why were you afraid of Halloween in the first place? You always loved Halloween especially when we were kids. You stopped liking Halloween when we were in high school."

I never talked about why I feared Halloween. It was something that I always kept to myself. When I was fifteen, I was attacked by my history teacher. He had been secretly falling in love with me in a weird sadistic way. I didn't talk about it much and I didn't tell anyone because it was horrific. When I was a kid, I loved Halloween because it was a time to dress up and get candy. But that Halloween changed my life. He told me that he needed help setting up for the Halloween party at school. I decided to help him because I was top of the class and I wanted to stay on good terms with him. We were in the gym and I was helping him set up. I stopped decorating to go to the bathroom. But he followed me into the bathroom and there he forced himself on me. I can still feel his hands and his lips on my skin. I can still hear his voice as he whispered disgusting things that he wanted to do to me in my ear. He hated that I was with Alex and he would tell me all the time how Alex didn't deserve me. He knew that I was a virgin and he wanted to be my first. I was scared and I allowed myself to be taken advantage of because I believed him. He told me that if I didn't let him that he would fail me. He would make sure that I would be in his class again. So, I let him pleasure me. I wanted it to end so badly but he wasn't going to let me leave that easy. When he tried to penetrate me, I fought back. His body was made of pure muscle and he was much bigger than I was. Luckily, I was able to get away from him and escape into the janitor's closet. Lucky for me the janitor was locking up for the evening and he helped me. My teacher ended up quitting the next day. He knew that if word got out and he was arrested that his face would be everywhere. He didn't want that type of attention and so he just gave up his job and walked away. But he promised me that he would always be watching me. He didn't hesitate to remind me that every Halloween marked our anniversary. It's been six years since that attack and it still haunts me. Alex and I were dating at the time. I couldn't even fix myself to tell him because I was so embarrassed. I didn't want him to break up with me. He knew something was going on though and questioned me. But I always lied to him.