The One in the Middle

Chapter 10- I'm in the Middle of a Complicated Plan...

"I think you know who you really want to choose..."

Mo's words rang through my read like an echo in an endless hallway, going and going forever. I knew he was right and I guess I don't want to admit that he is. 

They always say that if you love two people, always choose the second one because if you really loved the first person, you wouldn't fall the other person. Except I don't think that's true at all. I thought I had fallen for Mo but truth is, I was thinking about Robin the whole time I would be with him. What's Robin doing? I wonder where Robin is... I really want to be in Robin's arms right now...

My heart knows what it wants without any doubts, but I know that I like Mo. But I love Robin. It's so different, but my brain doesn't want to hurt him because I knew he loves me so much. But I don't love him as much as he does. But if Mo really loves me, he will let me go. I have to learn that I can't make everyone happy, even if I try. 

I stand in front of the Gibb's doorstep. The sun shines on me, seeming to mock me with its bright and sunny and happy appearance. 

However, I know that the longer I wait to do this, the more afraid I'll be. I need to rip off the bandaid, so to speak. 

So, with a swift knock, I stand on the doorstep with my hands clasped in front of me. I'm a bundle of nerves, and that won't change for anything until I know everything will be okay. And I know things will be, but who knows how hurt Mo will be. 

The door creaks open quickly and both Robin and Mo are standing there. They both have the same look in their eyes... They're both in love with me. Except, I felt his coldness between them. 

I knew that if I kept going on and leading them both on that I would only drive a wedge between them. I know how close they are and I would hate it if I were the reason they hate each other. My only option is to choose and, no matter how much it hurts, I know who I want. 

"Hazel! I'm so glad to see you, love," Robin says with a smile, taking my hand and pulling me inside with a kiss, right in front of Mo. 

I savored the kiss for a moment but it almost felt as though he were doing this in spite of Mo. I felt the tension between them and it scared me a little. 

I pull away and stand in between the two. "Robin... Mo... I came to talk to you about something. It won't be a happy conversation but I don't want to drive a wedge between you guys so I think-" I stopped abruptly and bit my lip, looking down at my feet. "I think I need to choose. I can't keep leading you both on like this."

Mo's face drops because I think he knows. He knows that I choose Robin. "Alright... It's okay to be honest, Hazel." Mo looks me in the eye for a moment. 

Robin couldn't seem to sit still, he kept rocking on his heels back and forth, his hair falling over his eyes. 

"I'm just going to say it, no point in suspense now. I'm in love with Robin. I'm sorry Mo, but I am," I admit, looking Robin in the eye and glancing at Mo, who just looked heartbroken. 

"Hazel... I know you loved him but I thought we had something special and that you felt similarly to me." He couldn't keep eye contact with me. "I was only being what you wanted me to be... What did I do? We were best friends and I felt the spark. When you wore my clothes, and the times we kissed and the time watching the stars together... Did it mean nothing to you?"

His words broke my heart, utterly and completely, to know that I hurt him so badly. "I never wanted to lead you on like that! But I just didn't know-"

"Hazel, you knew you loved Robin. You and he have been for as long as you remember. I thought you loved me," he whispered. 

I didn't say anything. I just stood and looked at him. "I know this won't fix anything, but I'm sorry. I truly am. I thought there was something else there but- but I guess I was wrong." 

Mo walked out of the room and left without a word.