The One in the Middle

Chapter 11- My Eyes Can Only Look At You

Robin and I were left standing in the doorway after that painfully awkward moment with Maurice. I knew I made the right decision because no matter how much he is hurting right now, I know this pain will be temporary and won't last forever. I know everything will be okay. 

I was looking down at my feet because I was lost in my thoughts, letting them consume my brain, and eventually, I know that it will slowly eat away at my brain, metaphorically of course. It's always a dangerous thing to be left with only you and your thoughts. In my own experience, it leads to dangerous territory. 

Robin lifts my chin with his finger so my eyes meet his. He had this wide grin plastered on his face, ear to ear it seems. His eyes sparkled with this familiar happiness that I would always see and feel when we are alone. His hands snaked around my waist slowly and pulled me close. 

"So... you love me? You're in love with me?" he whispers in my ear as my head rests on his chest. 

I felt the vibrations of his voice as he spoke, and it was almost soothing in a way that I can't describe. I would have responded if it weren't for the fact that I was very distracted by being so close to him and inhaling his scent. 

"Hazel?"  

Again, I heard his voice and it had processed in my brain that he was speaking to me but I was in my world and savoring the moment. 

But in a swift moment, he started to kiss me. His hands were on the back of my neck. I felt that the kiss was meaningful. I knew he felt the same way as if this kiss cemented our feelings for each other. 

As expected, it started slow and romantic. We savored each sweet kiss as if it was our last. His hands drifted to the small of my back and as I felt the kiss was going to get a little heated, I pulled away from it. 

His eyebrows furrowed a little and his eyes met mine. "I'm sorry, did I get carried away...?" Robin looked as if he felt bad for it, which he didn't need to at all!

I smiled sweetly at him to reassure him that everything was okay. "Robin, look at me." I paused for a moment, ensuring that he was indeed looking at me. "You didn't get carried away at all. That was where the kiss would end up leading anyway, and I'm just not ready for that type of kiss yet. I'll get there, but you didn't do anything wrong, Robin." 

A weight seemed to have been lifted off his chest and his face softened, looking calmer than he did a few moments ago. I let my hand rest on his waist all the while. 

"I understand that, love, and I know we'll get there. But that's for another time," he stated with a slight wink. 

Despite everything else, he still manages to be flirty and smooth. I don't get how he can be such a flirt no matter what. It makes me laugh, honestly.

I looked up at him, my head still resting on his chest and I was just in my world if I'm being honest. Nothing else mattered except for us. His eyes were gorgeous and I didn't want to look away from them, not ever. 

In his eyes, I could tell he had so many ambitious ideas on what to do now that we've confessed how we felt. All of this is still so new and exciting that it seems there is so much to do with each other now, even though we technically aren't official yet. 

My eyes flutter as I listen to the rhythm of Robin's heart beating in his chest, which even I found to me rhythmic and soothing in a way. 

I felt his hand in my hair, running his hand through it gently. I couldn't see his face, but I knew he had that genuine Robin smile plastered from ear to ear. 

"Are you feeling a little sleepy?" he whispers into my ear, a hand placed on the back of my neck. 

I smile sleepily, my eyes partially closed. "A little, if that's alright... I hadn't realized how tired I was." 

I felt the vibrations from his laugh through me, and it made me smile like an idiot. This felt so nice, and it felt right like this was how things were meant to turn out. 

"How about we head up to my room and we take a little nap? I can even play some music if you'd like to," he offered, still running a hand through my hair. 

Without saying a word, I nod. But then he picks me up bridal style which resulted in a lot of giggles and laughter echoing around us, and I found myself laughing his name as he continued to carry me up the stairs. 

"You better not drop me!" I laughed, snuggling my head into his chest with every step he took. 

"Oh love, I wouldn't even dream of it. You know that." Robin smiled sweetly, yet there was a hint of flirtatiousness in there too. 

I don't remember much of the trip up the stairs and into his room because I was beginning to fall asleep, admittedly. He laid me down, and immediately after that he laid down next to me and cuddled me on his chest. 

"Sweet dreams..." he whispers. 

"Don't let go?" I mumble, looking up at him through sleepy eyes. 

Kissing my forehead with a loving smile, he says, "Never..."