Agony-Analgesic ( FF - En of Love , Yinwar or Veemark)

chapter 11 : Nightmare

Life is full of different events if you hold on to past so tight You don't able to live fully present moment with greatest joy .

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After taking with yihawa I tried to sleep but I got worried because recently I can't able to sleep easyly .....again again that nightmare come back to my memory which accore 4 year ago.

4 year ago I got into car accident that time I am with my parents my both sister are not with us my older sister study abroad that time and yihawa my younger sister went to her friends home to brithday party . After accident that time I got only some scratch on my body . But my mother get Hurt her head when trying to save me from more injury . When I wake up in hospital and  asked for how mother they didn't tell me anything and told me to recover first . Then when I recover they told me she in coma . And father get fracture in leg bone and displaced elbow ....and some other injury but he recover almost from his injury ..... He recently also living abroad with my older sister ...... and my mother is in 24 hour observations in best hospital there which my older sister told them. So my parents and older sister are not here in Thailand

She come here every 3 months for my therapy because I developed symptoms PTSD after car accident .....my older sister recognise my symptoms early because she is psychologist so when she comes here she consultant me as patient than brother .... and check my condition every week by video call.

My younger sister yihawa and I live here in Thailand until our study completed .... May be we are going to move also with our parents after completing our study.

But I am not sure...... because of my condition they don't let me..... too near to mother . So may be we stay here even after our study completed . But I miss mother so much sometimes so much that I can't even sleep for whole night . So I sleep in class most of time.

Yihawa stay at her dorm in university for her project so I mostly live here alone with my dog in this big house . But she called me everyday 16 to 17 time .....i think even people girlfriend don't even call this much time like she does.
And ask her bunch of questions everytime .

After 1 year of that incident I realized I have developed power that I can go into people dream if they don't resist my presennce. Once in Every 3 week .......because after using that power one time I became weak and completely recovered in 3 week.

So when I want to go into any person dream I can go every 3 week it used my energy...... The more time I stay in people dream more I became weak after and it take time to recover myself again .

But mostly I want to go into only one person dream and that my mom .

I can go into other people dream easyly who don't know me but people I close to me my family and friends I don't able to go in their dreams easyly I have to use so much energy

That much energy take sometimes I became so weak they need to put me on IV at emergency in hospital .

After knowing this I tried so many times to go in mother dream ...... Even once I put my life on line because of that . My health is that much distorted that that they almost lost me.

So after that my family decided I am going stay away from mother so I don't able to use my power and put my life in danger again .

Because more distant less my power work and more energy use.
That's why yihawa always call me and check my condition .

When I get injure that time also my power not easyly work I need put so much energy if I want to use .

So it going to take atlest 3 week to recover me from ankle sprain that why I can't say yes to vee right now .

But I don't know why I am hesitating inside to say no to vee . We don't even know each other properly still..... I don't want to say no to him....

May be because pain I saw in his eyes when we first time met.
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11:06pm 2/9/2021