trigger warning: mentions of self harm
i slit my wrists to be closer to you,
i covered myself in ashes to erase the touches of another for you,
i forced myself to smile when i wasn't happy so that you could see i was,
i cross out mirrors with an x because my reflection doesn't mean anything without you next to me,
i stare at my veins while i fall asleep to imagine how you would look at them,
i let the tears fall down my cheeks whenever i see her with you,
i burn my thighs with a lighter to punish myself for you,
i do this for you and only you
- a.
