We're just friends

Part 7: Secret

The mall trip was actually enjoyable, we all talked about everything happening in our lives and Miley was being a decent human being. But, Ruth wouldn't shut about about shipping me and Gaege together since Bailey told her I liked Gaege, but I didn't really mind it.

We bought some stuff, walked around, got some food at the food court and made plans for another time before heading our seperate ways.

I call Gaege on facetime when I got into my car on my way home. "Hey princess. How was the mall?" He ask making me smile. "It was better than expected, but can you come over? I wanna talk, I should be home soon." He frowns a little and shrugs. "I'm not in trouble am I?" I shake my head and giggle. "No, Gaege. It's good news, I guess." He nods and smiles. "Alright then why not tell me now." I hear shuffle his way out of bed and I look at the screen seeing start to smile. "Cause it's not as fun." I tell him and he rolls his eyes. " Fine. See you soon." Then he hangs up after pretending to eat the camera and I laugh at his childish behavior.

I'd practice telling how to confess my feelings for Gaege about a million times in the care before pulling into my driveway. None of the words seemed like me and I didn't know what to say cause what if I get rejected and he hates me. Ughh. Fucking overthinkers. (spiritually felt)

I get out the car, heading inside of the house leaving the door unlocked for Gaege, and put away the stuff I bought from the mall. I hear his voice, my heart thumps in my chest 3x faster than it had been before and I let out a couple of quick breathes before yelling back. "Coming." I look at myself in the mirror. "You can do it. Stop being a pussy." I mumble to myself as I leave my room.

"Hey what's up, little lady?" He locks the front door behind him. I fiddle with my fingers a bit, working up the courage to speak. "Uh not much. But, um sit down. Take a seat." He raise an eyebrow and takes a seat hesitantly. "You're scaring me now." I shake my head and sit down next to him letting out a breath. "What do you think of us?" I ask.

My anxiety was not on my damn side right now. I'm on the brim of tears and I don't even get why. I can't lose Gaege, he's the most amazing guy I've met and even though I met him like two days ago, it felt like I've know him all my life.

"Well, we're friends, aren't we? You're really sweet and funny." I hide behind a not so convincing smile. "Yeah, we are...friends."

Damn, friends? That hurt a bit considering I really really like him.

"Lavender, what's happening? You're not being yourself and you look like you're about to cry." He places his finger under my chin making me look at him, then takes my hand into his so I'd stop fiddling with them and smiles softly. A tear slips down my cheek and he frowns softly before pulling me into a hug. I hug him back tightly as he rubs small circles into my back.

His hug felt warm and safe, it was an embrace of what felt like passion and security which I didn't feel with most people.

I sniffle softly as he pulls back, he wipes away any trace of remaining tears and smiles to make me smile. "You ready to talk now?" I cup his face, pulling him in and kiss him.

I couldn't express my words to him without breaking down into tears or my words getting caught in my throat. But, they always said actions were louder than words.

He kisses me back, it wasn't like before, were it was a heat of the moment. It was more loving and gentle this time. I break the kiss catching my breath and lay my forehead against his own. "I love you Gaege like love you, love you. Not like a friend." I blurt out and turn a bright red. He smiles. "I love you too Lavender. I always did." I smile. "Really?" I ask. "Of course, how could I not? You've been trapped in my head since the day we met. I knew I had to get your first, that's why I got your discord. You seemed so unique, loving, funny and gentle. I just wanted you to be mine." I feel my face grow warm, I was probably a tomato right now but I didn't care. "So, what happens now?" I ask stupidly, I mentally face palm. "Lavender, will you be my girlfriend?" I smile brightly. "Yes, yes, a million times yes." We share another sweet loving kiss.

Gaege and I talked more about getting together, we talked first date ideas, we talked about who get to know we are dating and if we wanted to go public about dating. We decided on when I hit 1 Million followers on twitch that we would go public to everyone, including the rest of the boys.

As for the first date, Gaege took me out to Universal Orlando. I am a huge harry potter fan and he knew that. (gryffindor wya? lmao) I absolutely fangirled the whole time, bought plenty of Harry Potter stuff and it was everything I ever dreamed about.

It took me about two to three more months to hit 1 million subs on twitch. I decided not to stream the party we were going to throw cause I wanted it to be a private event. I couldn't have made it to 1 mill without the boys, we did plenty of colab videos together, and they ever made there own group account known as Yep the Boys. It was a party to celebrate our growth, time together and success.

I know what you might be thinking, how did you keep you and Gaege a secret? It wasn't that hard, when we weren't recording or busy with our personal lives. Gaege and I hung out, we spent nights at each others house, went to the mall, went to the beach and just enjoyed each other company behind the scenes. It was absolutely the best two months being with him so far.