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Chapter 10: Soul

After what seems like hours, I reluctantly follow Maka back into the apartment. She takes a seat in the living room, and I have a bad feeling in the pit of my stomach that I'm about to be lectured. I sit on the edge of an arm chair, ready to bolt if it comes to it.

She takes a breath, and the diarrhea of the mouth begins. "Soul... You hurt me. Why'd you leave? What did I do? Is there anything I can do? I want to help you, Soul. You're my partner, and I love you, whether or not you love me back. And, yeah, this is me professing my love, and will you please stop me before I break down? Because I'm not sure if I can keep going if you hate me, and--"

"Maka."

She looks up from her hands and into my red eyes. "Hn?"

I let out a breath I was holding in fright. "I stand by what I said earlier. I can't love someone I just met."

I see tears build up in her eyes, and my heart aches, seeing that I've hurt someone to the point of tears.

"I don't want to hurt you, but it seems like that is the only way to get the message to you. I cannot be with you... at least not now." I start to make my way back to my room in fear of hurting Maka even more.

She catches my arm and tells me to sit back down. "I know that... but I don't understand... Why won't you let me help you, Soul? You know that I love you, and I'm okay with the fact that you can't love me back right now. But I can't go on, knowing that there's no chance of us ever happening again. I can't go on if we can't be friends any more. I can't go on if I can't have you anymore..."

Feeling cold-hearted, I stand up. "I'm sorry." I shake my head and leave the room, Maka crying. I rummage through the fridge for food, and I settle on a piece of salmon.

I hear a sniffle a few feet away from me, and immediately know I've made a mistake. "I said I'm sorry, okay? I don't know what else you want me to do, Maka! I won't sacrifice my morals for you, no matter what we were before this morning. The fact of the matter is, I don't know you. I don't love you, I don't even know how much I can trust you, seeing as I just met you," I say and turn to the girl next to me. "I am sorry. But there's not much that you can do. There's not even anything I can do." I shake my head, and feel overwhelmingly guilty for hurting this girl. I quickly remind myself that this is not my fault.

She takes a deep breath, as if she feels like she will regret her next words. "You can leave."

"Eh?" I snap.

"I said, you can leave. I'll decide about us later, but you're no longer welcome in our home. Your presence keeps hurting me, so, until you can pull your shit together, you're not welcome here," she orders, attempting--and failing--to keep her head high.

I shrug, trying not to show my disappointment and confusion. "'Kay. Give me twenty, and I'll be gone."

She gapes at me. "What? No, "I'm sorry, forgive me" crap? Just, "'kay"? What the hell? I kick you out, and you're fine with being kicked to the streets in a strange city? What the hell is wrong with you, Soul?"

I sigh in exasperation. "We. Have. Been. Over. This. Maka. I don't know you, so how am I supposed to be dependent on you? How am I supposed to trust you? How am I supposed to LOVE you? Hn?" I growl, narrowing my eyes, getting angrier by the second.

She accidentally lets out a sob. "Go! Get out!" She buries her face in her hands and then looks up after a few seconds of me watching her. Her eyes are red and puffy. "I said get out, and I mean it! Out! Now!"

She starts to push me, but I swat her hand away and make my way to the door. "Bye, Maka."

A/N: Short chapter, sort of broke my heart writing it... :-| Updates soon, hopefully!