(TRIS)
laying in bed staring at the ceiling, feeling helpless and dirty. My mind was trying to process what had happen yesterday. In my head it felt like a dream, but by the soreness of my body it was hard to believe that.
«FLASHBACK»
He lifted me up and thew me on the bed. I tried to jump off the bed and crawl underneath it hoping he would not catch me and would eventually leave but I wasn't quick enough to even make it that far. He grabbed me by the leg and pin me to the ground, while I was pinned to the ground he continued to softly kiss my neck. I guess he was trying to set the mood. But I just kept on squirming around. Trying my hardest to break his grip.
"STOP FUCKING MOVING!" his voice sounding very demanding yet annoyed.
"Why would I stop moving! If some nasty ass stranger is trying to rape me." I said in a mocking tone "I'm not scared of you." I headbud him.
His grip loosen and I was able to escape from his grip I got up and ran towards the window as I was approaching the window he yet again grabbed my leg. Now he was pissed. He dragged me on the floor still holding my leg and slammed me on the bed. I yelled violently.
"If you just would have kept still all this would have been over but you're the one that made it hard for yourself." He said giving me this dirty smirk.
The impact of him throwing me must have paralyzed me because I couldn't sit up, it would hurt whenever I tried to. I laid there unable to move. As reality started to hit me, I realized I was really about to get raped. My eyes stared to water, I just could not hold it in anymore; he stared to take my shirt off, being cautious of my back. Then taking off my pants slowly sliding off my underwear, he stared feeling my body from my boobs to my private area with his hands. He started to take off his pants. He got me, I can't believe it. I wasn't going to give up, but I didn't have the strength in my body to get up and fight. I took a deep breath and just went into deep thought as he entered me without my permission.
When he was satisfied, he put on his clothes and left.
«END OF FLASHBACK»
I'm guessing while I was getting raped my mother left and hasn't been back since. I've been laying in bed for two days now, just how he left me. I'm scared to move because I don't want to know if my back is truly broken. A lot of things have been running though my mind for the past two days like the fact that my own mother would let me get raped for money. I know times aren't good but they're not horrible even though we only have a roof over our heads, water, and food I think we're pretty good. My stomach started to growl, an I've been holding in my pee for two days I need to get up *15 mins later* I slowly rise up from the bed and my back still hurts but not as bad as it did, so I'm guess it's not broken. I got up walked to the bathroom peed, got cleaned up and got ready to go to school. YES! school I'm not going to let this effect me, TF don't worry I'll get my revenge sooner or later; but for right now I want to go to college, become a fashion designer and live my dreams. I've had two days of feeling sorry, beating beating myself up, crying and trying my hardest to figure out how I was going to deal with all this. I'm just going to take it one day at a time and see what happens... I want to prove the people that said I wont be anything. WRONG.
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omg guys it's been a longgggggg time and I'm really sorry about that I'm going to try to write more but I've had this HUGE WRITERS BLOCK for the longest and I wanted this chapter to be longer but I couldn't think of anything to type but thanks for not unfanning and waiting and still reading & voting that means the world to me PLEASE COMMENT what u would like to happen. ideas tell me what u think thxs LOVE YOUUUUUUUU
