These memories are supposed to be some kind of happy moment in my life but then they are clouded with some darkness. I think its because Ive kept everything bottled up inside. Everytime I try to find another happy moment it starts being blocked out and then eventually I run out of memories, that are happy anyways. At this point I dont think anyone or anything can help or be done. I never could have another happy moment because everytime I go into public areas or even through technology the evil demons/monsters go and attack that innocent person. My thoughts and memories make everything worse no matter what I think of whether its happy or not. There is no break from the darkness from within. And these cuts now just flow out perfection of what temporarily solves my problem. The red liquid flowing from a line or two is enough to make me stop thinking for a while in this dark corner. The pain takes back control of the memories and puts them back on path or the pain just blocks everything out. Which in my case is a good thing. I cant even make the slightest judgement without something going wrong and making me wonder or think worse than what is already flowing through my messed up mind. Thats when the emotions start pouring out.
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The Infection
AcakI don't think most of you will read this but it helps me and you'll know what im talking about when i say help, if you read it.
