Ailynn Ranada Aokigahara Forest, Japan 1:27 AM | Christmas Day 2019
Today was Christmas & I found myself somewhere that I never thought I'd end up again.
Back at this damn forest. I wasn't here for a bad reason neither. I'm here for closure.
I left everyone's presents labeled them under the tree except for one person. I didn't wanna be dramatic and just leave, so I let them know I was going on a trip. I just didn't say where to.
The view was beautiful but the story of this place is so sad.
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I enjoyed the view while listening to Jukai by Jhene Aiko. The song brings me true peace. Which is what i'm looking for.
I was sitting alone for a few minutes until I heard movement behind me.
"why you out here by yourself?" kentrell asked me.
"the real question is how did you know i was here" i asked him.
"come on now Ranada let's be for real. I saw that look on yo face" he replied to me.
I let it be silent for a few seconds, then I broke the silence.
"so, why are you here?" I asked him. I wasn't even trying to be mean to him, just confused.
"i got some making up to do. but before I talk, I wanna give you your gift" he said pulling two box's out his pocket.
whatever it was, was in a medium - small sized box. Which, honestly surprised me because he always buys big.
he handed me the boxes & I opened the first one. It was a pendent with a picture of Aokigahara & a picture of him on the back.
"I wanted to get something with a meaning" he said as I opened the second box.
the second box was the same but instead of a post of him, it was a picture of me.
"that one fa me. it's matching diamond pendants to show where we met."
"plus i know i fucked up bad , but i wan my ranada back. i miss you bad. shit ain't been the same. i love you for real. you bring out the real me. can I have another chance?" he said grabbing my hand.
at this point, I was crying. I really wasn't expecting this. the pendant actually means alot to me because it just brings back that feeling of when i first met him.
he was the only person i felt understood me & we were complete strangers. of course i still love him. but it's fucked up because i don't know if i can trust him anymore.
half of me wants to believe he'll change but the other doesn't. i'm at a vulnerable point right now & my thoughts are running every which way. i didn't even know what to say.
the best thing about it, is that our situation never hit the public but still it hurts.
"Kentrell, I don't know. you have to prove that I can trust you before I'm even seen with you in public." i said & he nodded his head.
then he reached his arms out to me. I hugged him & didn't even want to let go. I truly missed this feeling.
"i'm sorry ranada. you ain't deserve that. but i promise ima make us better" he said resting his head on my mines.
i just nodded.
"here's your gift" i said handing it to him.
i bought him a ring with diamonds all around it , on the inside of the ring it had the date of when we met.
"this raw as fuck" he said putting it on. I slightly smiled.
"aye I love you ranada" he said.
"I love you too Kentrell" I responded.
we sat with each other & talked until the sun came up.
i missed this.
hopefully, we'll find our way back together again.
ik this chapter poo 🙄 i gotta get back in the writing spirit! but this book is almost over, so just know book 2 it's uppppp!
