Broken

Chapter 5.

Day 2 post Jack and I am regretting everything I have done. I texted him and asked if we could meet to talk things over.

He was a complete different person. Tonight he was not the Jack i knew 3 weeks ago when we were sat in the restaurant celebrating two years of being engaged.

He was mean and horrible. I was crying but he just said "I'm enjoying single life". I was begging and crying. "Fuck this" he yells and he walked away leaving me beind in the darkness.

When I got home I was angry. I was full of rage and I couldn't control it. This is all Bens fault if he doesn't lead me on I would still be with Jack. I grab my phone and messaged Ben.
"This is all your fault. If you weren't here I could still be with Jack. I hate you with a burning passion. Fuck off from my life".
His response was "Fine enjoy your life".

There I was. Alone. My friends hated me. They hated me for what I've done. I hated me. I felt worthless. This was the worst pain ever. Loosing someone you love and all your friends.

I ran up in my room crying I grabbed the blade from my sharpner and began scraping it across my left wrist. It calmed me down. It did. I promised myself I would never hurt myself but it helped me. I didn't know what to do.

The next day at college I hid my scars. Both physical and emotional scars. I kept a smile on my face. I was hanging out with my friends Sarah and Hannah.

Towards the end of the day I was sat in class and I couldn't hold it in anymore. I ran out of the classroom straight into the nearest toilet. I locked myself in one of the cubicles. Crying. All of the sudden I heard someone come in. My teacher Dalma. She took me to her office. She asked me to explain what happened. I told her. She gave my a wise advice "You're young. You don't need a man. Ignore both of them. It's for the best".

That night I decided to apologise Ben.