i went to the doctors the other day
water
water
water
i fasted all week
just to see what i weighed
without anything added
i removed my shoes
and took off my bracelet's
and stepped onto the scale
to find out i had lost
another
seven
pounds
i was ecstatic
overjoyed
proud
but then when i looked in the mirror when i got home
that joy was lost
even though i had lost seven
i still have many to go
im fat
im ugly
im not pretty
why should i eat
pretty girls don't eat food
they drink water
so i skip another meal
i look forward to school for skipping lunch
water
water
water
feeling ugly on metabolism days
not being able to pass a mirror without looking at myself
is this me?
my stomach is too big
my collarbones don't show enough
my thighs are huge
my double chin shows
i need to lose more
water
water
water
