how could i ever love alex?

is she ok?

im on the plane ride back to mexico with alex and ive been thinking a lot

am i really in love with him?

or is this all fake?

i also think hes seeing someone else

but i think its too early for me to be thinking that

is it?

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diary:

after a long day of flying we are finally home

i want to tell you everything that happened in this exact order.

1pm: we get home

2pm: alex helps me put things away

3pm: don't wanna talk about it

4pm ish: hes texting someone

5pm: still texting??

6pm: hes going out

10 pm: still out?

12pm: he texted me

1 am: hes home

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4 weeks later..

i have a sickening feeling hes seeing someone else

just cause hes always out. it doesnt even matter if its on a tuesday, monday, or even wednesday.

i think im gonna confront him about it soon.

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imessage:

george: hello

m: hi hi

g: wyd

m: crying

g: why

m: wyd

g: why are you crying

m: wyd

g:nothing you

now tell me why your crying

m: cool

im crying

g: surprising

m: george when will i see you again

g: soon

m: whens soon?

g: soon

now when will you stream with me

m: rn

g: okay let me get ready

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"hey guys its melanie again, thanks for joining and we're basically just gonna troll people on the dsmp" george speaks to his stream.

"my game is lagging give me a second" i mute

is that alex?

"what are you doing in there, melanie?" alex speaks from the other side

"im streaming with george? what did you need?" i ask

"nothing, im getting grocieries ill be back in an hour or two" he says as his footsteps sound fade away

i sit back down and unmute

"sorry george can you check discord real quick?"

"yeah, chat im muting"

discord: