MY PACE, personal

i want to torture...

anyone who actually likes what i write.

want to know what it is? yep, i'm spilling the details of my first ever fanfiction and how i stopped it, dropped it, and threw it in the trash. 

basically, i remember when i was reading a bts fanfiction, i don't remember exactly what it was, but i think it was the time i sent malpol02 a bunch of links. anyways, i wanted to write something as beautiful as what i was reading, i already wrote trash anyway, so i was watching can't you see me to spot anything i missed (this was blue hour era lmao) when i realized something.

my brain: the txt universe is the perfect place to start.

so off i went, trawling through multiple mvs, reading through every single lyrics in all of txt's existence, and i came up with a perfect idea. i mean, not really, since i modified it multiple times, but the gist of it is this:

inspired by all three dream chapter albums, mostly angel or devil, i came up with this concept where the world is populated with angels, demons, or in between. half-breeds, but that sounds mean so i changed it to half-blood (now that i think about it...why does it sound like i'm copying j.k. rowling and rick riordan help).

so, basically, angels and demons had different powers, i don't remember exactly which ones, but i think it was elemental (think avatar-style), necromancy (don't ask), telekinesis (the heck was i doing) and... mind powers??? yep, definitely don't remember. point is, i wanted to do a twist on your typical summer camp au, where the boys meet at summer camp. obviously.

with a counselor being found... dead (IM SORRY IM MESSED UP) and this person has a family connection with yeonjun and he's absolutely destroyed and the other four are there for him, of course, but what he doesn't know is that each boy played a part in the death, directly and indirectly. just by the fact i said cysm i think you can guess soobin and taehyun had the most to do with it.

beomgyu, essentially, is the type of person who can use up his own life energy to heal others, and he feels guilty he didn't do it when he found the body. he was the first to find it, but was terrified so badly he ran off and didn't speak about it. i was gonna make him realize there was no point anyway bc the dude was very much dead and even if he was alive he would have died himself.

hyuka is the type of person who can see a bit into the future, and as you can guess, yeah, he did see it, but vaguely. he knew taehyun and soobin were going to be involved, so he kept a close eye on them without saying anything, following them wherever they went and because sookai, nobody minded. 

i literally can't remember what happened next but he feels guilty, because he didn't do anything about it. yeonjun finds out all this after they eventually crack up when they grow older and some magical stuff due to the horrible stress parents put on them paired with their ever-growing guilt caused a crazy explosion (?) to happen. either way yeonjun is someone who does not realize his friends never meant to do it, and kinda cuts things off with them.

and then some weird stuff happens while they separate because of the promise to the star they made at camp (sound familiar) and eventually they....i didn't plan this part lol. anyways they reunite in the end and that's it.

EDIT: okay wp deleted this part read below

anyway, i deleted it because for some reason my computer kept backfiring on me and corrupting the files, so every single freaking time it happened i REWROTE IT FROM SCRATCH. every single time, i made minor changes, because i couldn't be bothered to redo it exactly. it got to a point where i was literally unable to sleep worrying whether it would be gone by morning.

and yes, half the time it was. even when i transferred it to a usb drive. love how supportive my computer is. this went on and on and on until i think i had done like thirty different versions, all of which kept getting deleted. tbh i admire how well i held on for months. i updated the computer since though. it's not as buggy.

so i kept telling myself, "one more time," until i eventually got tired and deleted it in july, which is when i started writing unknown world (and it's so much better please)

please this all sounds so horrible i'm dying good-bye