FERVOR: a wedding debacle.(Complete✔️)

Chapter 4: A table set for two

GIVEON

"why are you doing this? "

" I am unhappy, I have been for a while" she says the words like she is as surprised by them as I am.

" unhappy? How? Why?" I am scrambling, looking around the room for some inspiration, a hint on how this day took such a drastic turn. My unpacked bag in the corner mocks me, what else can I do at this point, I just had the best time of my life with her and all this time she was unhappy. Unhappy!

" I don't know.. I just-" she ducks her head, lost for words.

"-just what Jean? We just celebrated our 2 year anniversary in the Maldives, met up with our friends and went to all the places we have always wanted to go. Hell, we just had brunch with my family, If those are not signs of a thriving relationship I don't know what is, what more can I do? When will this ever be enough." my voice is raised now. I don't know what else to do.

" stop shouting at me, you are so impossible, why do I even bother with you? Ugh" she isn't lost for words but holding back and her clenched teeth and labored breath bring me into panic mode, she is never angry with me and I don't know what I did to push her over the edge but I have to rectify this.

" Its been a long day baby, lets calm down okay" I say pulling her close and this time she allows me, making me exhale a relieved breath.

" I am going to need you to stop handling me, every time I try to tell you how I feel you see it as a fire you need to put out and its unfair. This trip has shown me that any hope of us getting through this is a lost cause because it would require you to see me as a person with feelings and an equal ability to decide what is good for them and what is not but that will never happen." her voice is calm and full of doom like the silence that follows a big storm and this time I am not prepared for the fallout.

" you are my sunshine, don't do this" I hug her tighter even though its obvious that she might be in my arms but I lost her a long time ago. " we can work through this don't give up on me, I am trying" I keep my voice quite and somber knowing that she responds well to it and it would not do to into a shouting match, in case she is not yet too far gone.

"why did you throw away my books? You said we would talk about it but you threw them away anyway."

"so that's what this is about? I promised we would talk about it and you promised that you would de-register from college, I guess we are the same in that regard"

" This relationship has been about you from the beginning, I told you I wanted a small and private celebration but you insisted we fly to the Maldives on a whim and I got fired for it, when cried to you about it, you just shrugged and said I did not need to work anyway but I let it go. Halfway through our trip your friends show up, YOUR friends, and we got dragged to nightclubs, bungee jumping and swimming with sharks and all the high adrenaline activities that I told you I don't like. so Do not talk about my going back to school like it was the biggest betrayal when the scales of this relationship have been tipped in your favor from the start. You have bled out every part of me that matters and now I can't even recognize the person looking back at me in the mirror"

Her words leave me rooted on the spot, with my arms still open as if waiting for her to come back into the embrace but before I know it she is walking out of the door, taking away any warmth in the room. I don't know how long I stand there waiting for her to turn back around but it isn't until the sunsets and throws the room in semi darkness that manage to move my feet to run after her, I cannot lose my sunshine. She needs me too right?

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i forgot how therapeutic writing can be, also when did i decide to make Giveon the bad guy?

i hope you enjoyed reading this, i have the flu so i dont know when i will update next.