Small Doses | EUPHORIA {1}

6

ELIDA

At the moment my whole world stop.. completely. My worst fear... I dreaded this moment when I walked away from Fez...

"Uh-h what are you talking about our son?"

I tried my best not to look at him, knowing myself to well I would be in tears. The betrayal in his eyes.

"Rue told me everything Luz. Please don't lie to me."

At this point he was crying. The pain, I felt it. I hurt him as much as he hurt me. Yet does he still love me after finding out that I toke his son from him, for years. He lost all the memories, the crawling, talking and the walking. He missed everything. And I knew that in this moment he hate me for not telling at him. I can hear the hurt in his voice.

" Yes, he is your son"

I finally replied, looking down at my sleeping son.He doesn't have any fault in this. This was all me. I want the best for my son, and as his mother it was my job to protect him from all the harm in the world. I knelt down on my knees and sat next to the bed,admirng my beautiful son. I did my best not to look at Fez.

"Why Luz?" he said as he voiced wimpered more and more with every question that left his lips.

"Why didn't you tell me, I would've been there for you. For us. For him."

He felt to his knees, he had given up at standing.

" Lucia, you knew how much family means to me, yet you toke it from me. YOU ROBBED ME. MY ONLY CHANCE AT HAPPINESS!"

He screamed as he picked him self up and went to grab me, to look me at my face. My tears were falling all over my face but his face, heartbreak was written all over it.

"WHY!! ANSWER ME ELIDA."

But I couldn't look at him.

"LUZ PLEASE! LOOK AT ME!"

He pleaded for me to answer looking at my son and back at his father. I gave Elliot one last look at him, and turned to look at Fezco.

"The night I broke up with you, I was gonna tell you, but once I got here."

"You walked in my selling to Rue."

"Yeah. I just want the best for him."

"Don't. I still deserved to know. I would have been there. I wouldve help out. I have a good job. I make money. We would've been okay, Luz.

I scoff at his response.

"What!"

"No."

"No, what Luz?"

"When we started dating, I would always worry about you. Praying and hoping that I would see you everyday when you went on your business deals. I would be glad to see you alive every time that I saw you. My fear that one day I would receive a call, that you were killed and that hurt me every day thinking about. Now Fez, imagine how Elias would feel not know when daddy would come home or not, huh. Can you imagine the pain. And honestly I don't want him to go through that and as long you dealing drugs, things will never change. Your life will always be on the line and mine and our son's life will also be on the line cause you have enemies who will come after your family. and I can't live like that. Elias deserves more than that. And we both know that. Yes I'm sorry for not telling you, but at the same time I did what was best to protect him. And for that I'm sorry."

And with that I grabbed Elias and walked out the door and went home.

I'm now ready to face whatever tomorrow as in stored for me.