𝘽𝙚𝙩𝙬𝙚𝙚𝙣 𝙏𝙝𝙚 𝙍𝙤𝙨𝙚 𝙋𝙚𝙩𝙖𝙡𝙨

Coming back to reality

I lied there's more depression stuff soz I forgot dum me pls forgive me it's nothing bad just some scars and sleep bla bla so don't be sad :]

I woke up, I felt like shit. I went to my room to take a shower, I just wanted to sleep I felt so tired.

My bandages were already old so I took them off and went to take the shower, having the warm water on kinda stings so I tried to do it as fast as I can.

Finished with that damn hell of a shower, I took a pack of alcohol and bandages for my body. Gosh, I need more painkillers but im out.

I tried finding some sleeping pills at least so I can fall asleep but I didn't find any, fucking ass bag I don't have any I guess I have to go to the drug store fuck.

I just patched myself up taking a white shirt and jeans, getting my green jacket and a mask so I can go out. (Don't worry it's before the pandemic)

I took my bag, wallet, and left. I didn't order a Uber this time because I wanted to enjoy the day by walking and getting fit or something.

The walk was nice the wind was cold it felt nice when it made my hair dance, the sun was out it wasn't too bright. Leaves were falling off trees that I passed and the road was peaceful there weren't many cars that drove by.

Making it to the normal town to get the pills I need, I found the drug store and went inside.

I found the pills I need and went to the cashier, paid for my shit and left. I was walking back home and noticed the old park me and my best friend use to play in. We were so small and cute back then.

Made it back home Kakyoin was in the dining area, I didn't wanna tell him I bought painkillers or sleeping pills or hell why the fuck do I have scars!

I sneaked by not wanting him to acknowledge me, heading to my room I placed the pills in the drawer.

I took a painkiller and went to my bed I wanted to sleep but I just slept. My body felt like hell I just wanted to disappear, Kakyoin probably notice I came back because he knocked on the door.

I opened it like always "where we're you?" He asked "nothing just went to MC to get breakfast" he knew it was a lie, he could tell.

I was nervous I just hope he didn't worry so much, I hate that people cared about me I don't wanna feel like im a burden to them.

"Ok ok tell me the truth," he said rolling his eyes "..." I just stayed silent I don't wanna be a burden to him I really don't.

"Just tell me please" he begged "I-..... I went to the drug store.." I said.

His eyes widened "why did you need to go to the drug store?" He asked "it's none of your business you only asked for where I went," I said crossing my arms.

He pulled my hand, I have a hunch that he knows oh he knows. He lifted my shirt to show my scar. I immediately shook my hand and tuck my shirt in my jeans.

I don't know how he knows I don't know why he cares, but know he knows and know he cares.

"What was that," he asked lifting my shirt again "Meta your hurt!" He kneeled down looking at my wound.

"How long has this been here?" He asked, "...t-t-three... Y-years..." I mumbled.

"What! You never told me!" He said he got up with a worried face and hugged me "why didn't you tell me?" He said.

I stayed silent, I didn't want this to happen I didn't want anyone to know! I was expecting my best friend or mom but not him.

He pulled me away from the hug, placing a hand on my face.

I didn't wanna see his sorrowful face, I felt bad I made him feel like he didn't take care of me.

"Can you please tell me what happend?" He asked kindly, I nodded I whispered to close the door as I laid on my bed.

I placed my head on his lap as he stroke my hair, I didn't wanna talk about it but I have to "So can you tell me what happened?" He asked again.

"...dad use to..." "He uses to... Hit me" I didn't wanna say anything else it was hard enough for me to say THAT.

"So what happened, just like when you were in the basement. What happens more often than normal" he said, I nodded.

He brought me up to sit in his lap, putting my head on his shoulder I cried. I just needed to cry finally I can cry and let my emotions out in front of someone.

He hugged me tightly while I cried, he didn't care how long it will take for me to let out my emotions. I knew he would wait for as long as it takes for me to feel better.

And that's all I needed for me to be comfortable around him.

🍒 Kakyoins POV 🍒

She fell asleep, I tried tapping on her shoulder to confirm it myself and indeed she was asleep.

I took her in my arms place her in the bed, draping her in the blanket turning off the lights and kissed her forehead.

I left the room having to remember what happend. She had so much trauma build up and I wanted to be there for her.

I might just be the random guy her father told her to marry, but I still love her and I want her to know that.

The marriage will be in 4 more days from now. I'll make sure she has a place to finally call home.

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sooooo I almost lost all of my feelings for kak, but that doesn't stop me from continuing this book :)

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~Meta-Chan 🐸