Forever And Always...

Chapter five

   As the memories flooded back the pain became all too much! You never know what pain is until you loose your closest friend in the world. I stayed in my little nook the rest of the night crying my torn self to sleep.

The next day I slowly opened my eyes as the sunshine peered through the small window in my hidden room, I squinted a little but soon my eyes adjusted. I slowly got up and stammered down the stair to see my mom and dad. As I past by our hall way mirror I stopped so I could see what I would loo like. When I peered into it, my cheeks were stained with mascara and puffiness of my crying last night encrusted my eyes. I quickly kept walking to find my heart  broken parents. I looked in their room; my mom and dad both huddled together, you could see my mom who looked worst then me! The blood vessels around her eyes were popped from so much crying my dad  had salty tear residue left on his cheek from what I figured he too cried, I mean like what daddy wouldn't cry when they found out their little boy was killed!?

*A few days later after the funeral*

After I came in from walking our puppy Maisy, I decided to go back up to my room and just lie on my bed to think. When I got up there my phone started to go off with Justin Beiber's song one less lonely girl. I opened up the text and saw it was from Brooklyn. It read:

"Olivia! I am so sorry to hear about your brother! Hawaii just doesn't seem as fab since I found out Jerry died. I'll be praying for your family!  I'm going to send you something. I love you Livi!" The message read.

Honestly this really helped me! Just knowing someone cares!  You know when you feel so down you feel lower than dirt? Well that is how I felt now! I felt worthless and hopeless and all the things a 16 year old girl shouldn't be feeling! My brother was the only guy besides my dad who made me feel beautiful! Since he was older than me, he kinda took me under his wing. Where ever I could go he took me with him whether his friends liked it or not. Suddenly my phone went off again. 

" Here baby! This is the link. I know you don't really like boy bands but, there is this new group called One Direction. Please listen to this song for me." Brook's text pleaded.

I contemplated about if I should click the link. I decided not to, at least not right now. Later that week,  what seemed to be hundreds of aunts, uncles, cousins, seconds cousins and even third cousins I didn't even know existed! Tons of family's and friends came and visited us too. After, the whole house was filled with a terribly painful silence again. Each day I became worse and worse! My life amounted to practically nothing. Every day all day I would just feel more lost and loster, if that is even a word. I didn't feel pretty, I felt like a wreck!  The next day, for some reason the link Brooke sent me kept popping in my head. I kept on thinking about  it.  I just kept shaking it out of my mind. After moping  around the house, I went back up to my room. I laid on my bed just staring up at my ceiling. I turned and saw my phone just sitting there idol. I decided nothing could get much worse so I decided to take that step and press the link button. It took me to YouTube® where the band One Direction's music video had over 3 million views which intrigued my interest, but not enough for me to really care. I pressed play and waited for it to start.   " You're insecure. Don't know what for," The words started. I kept listening...

"Baby you light up my world like nobody else, The way that you flip your hair gets me overwhelmed, But when you smile at the ground it ain't hard to tell,You don't know, oh oh,You don't know you're beautiful!" As I kept listening the words just spoke to me. I know it sounds a little weird but they just did! It reminded me of how Jerry always called me beautiful. I felt a tear trickle down my cheek. As I quickly wiped them away, I pressed replay after the song was done. I must have replayed it a million times each time more words filled my soul with joy that I thought had been lost.  I never really liked boy bands but I think I'm starting to like this one.

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