Little Steps

Chapter Two

[for the sake of this story, Sirius and Regulus will be twins so that Regulus is in the same year as Lily and James. it will make sense why later in the story :)

bit of a longer chapter today]

________________________

Walking up to Lily's dorm almost felt wrong to Regulus. I mean, he had never been in any Gryffindor rooms, never mind talking to any except for his brother. At this point though, he was more concerned about James' behaviour than where he was going.

"I need to get James ready for bed. I hope you don't mind, he can be a bit fussy when he's tired,'' Lily's voice interrupted his thoughts.

"Oh uh- yeah that's fine..." Regulus replied a bit stunned.

Why was she telling him that? Couldn't James just get ready for bed by himself?

What happened next though, he wasn't sure he could have expected in any reality. When Lily put James down on her bed, he started whining and squirming on his back. James was literally acting like a child but it didn't stop there. He started to cry for 'mummy', whoever that was, and when Regulus turned his head to look for Lily she was walking back to the bed with multiple things in her hands that he could only describe as ridiculous. Especially as they were all nearly adults and were about to graduate from Hogwarts.

"I- uh L-Lily..?" Regulus managed to stutter out.

Lilt turned to face him with a small smile.

"If you feel more comfortable you can step outside for a few minutes. I promise it won't take long," she finished as if to convince him that it wasn't a big thing to deal with; whatever she was going to do.

Although Regulus' initial reaction was to run out of the room in shock, his feet seemed to have a mind of their own and stayed put right where they were. Obviously, she wasn't going to put that diaper on James was she? Or get him to use that pacifier? Or even- oh.

Oh.

Regulus suddenly knew exactly what was going on.

James was a little.

He had only ever overheard people talking about the concept and had only ever read about it a few times but...wow. He never thought he would actually meet one.

Lily was still looking at him when he looked back up from his feet and her face instantly morphed into one of understanding when she realised that he must have figured it out.

"He's a little isn't he?" Regulus surprised himself by asking.

A warm smile crept onto Lily's face again at the question and nodded. "He is. Are you okay with that?"

Regulus thought for only a moment before giving his honest answer. "I've never met one before so- I guess? I just... I don't really uh get it? The whole regression thing. I don't know. I'm sorry I-"

"Regulus, it's okay." Lily cut off his rambling. "If he does anything that makes you uncomfortable just tell me. Okay?"

"I- yeah," Regulus replied even though he knew that he was more than interested in what was going to happen and was almost certain he wouldn't feel uncomfortable by much of what they would do.

Lily gives him another one of those mesmerizing smiles and turns her attention to James who was whining all throughout their conversation but looked pretty much asleep now. She started to take off James' robes and loosened his tie before looking back to regulus.

"I'm just going to change him okay?"

"...Okay?" Regulus was still a bit surprised.

Even though it felt wrong, Regulus just couldn't look away. He didn't know what it was but he just couldn't take his eyes off of the two lovers. Sweet praises. Gentle touches. He started to feel something swell inside of him. He wasn't jealous just...ugh, he didn't know how to describe it but it was infuriating that he didn't know what it was he was feeling.

All this time he had been standing by the door of Lily's dorm and his legs were starting to ache and his head was starting to feel extremely heavy on his shoulders. Without thinking, he went to sit down next to James on the bed and smiled down at him. Although James was half asleep he still gave a little giggle and reached up to touch Regulus' face.

At first, he flinched. He internally cursed himself for being so sensitive and stupid but quickly pulled himself together. He reached up towards his face to hold James hand against his cheek and couldn't help but close his eyes for a moment and just enjoy the feeling. This moment was soon interrupted when James whined and wiggled his lower half around. Regulus looked down at what Lily was doing and just as he did he looked back at James' face just as quickly.

James wasn't wearing any pants. He was pretty much naked.

When he looked back at Lily she was looking back at him with a reassuring smile and finished up putting some sort of white cream on James' lower region (which was what James was whining about) and then lifted his hips whilst putting on his diaper. Lily made it seem as if he weighed absolutely nothing.

Must be something to do with that spell she used earlier, he thought to himself.

At this point, James and Regulus were both about to fall asleep so everything else passed in a blur. He faintly remembered being talked into laying down under the covers after he felt Lily take off his shoes, tie, jumper and trousers. If he's being honest with himself, he didn't feel uncomfortable; not completely at ease with someone seeing him in this state but he didn't feel the need to cover himself up or have his wand in arms reach.

Once Regulus was in bed and about to doze off he felt the bed dip behind him meaning that someone had just sat down. He didn't mind but when he turned he thought he must have been so sleep deprived that his mind was playing tricks on him.

He knew he saw Lily cradling James in her lap.

But he only thought he saw James suckling from Lily's breasts.

________________________

word count: 1006