Let Me Show You | Liskook Au

Chapter 41: Pain

Pain Pain Pain

She can only feel pain, and nothing else but pain.

She feels pain when he smiles at her, she feels pain when he hugs her or kisses her.

She felt pain every time he'll go out and take his calls, she felt pain every time she saw him laughing while talking to his phone.

She feels like pain is already becoming her. Like her behavior is changing as the day goes by.

She looks fine on the outside and her giggling self will automatically turn on every time he is present, or when she is with their members.

But every time she's alone.

She is miserable.

She wasn't sure how her tears could still flow in her face even though she is crying everyday, everyday asking herself what has gone wrong.

Now as she stares into the reflection of herself in the mirror, she can see the huge dark circle under her eyes with a tear stain on her cheeks.

She wasn't getting enough sleep, heck she feels as if she wasn't sleeping at all, she knew her insomnia was back.

Every night as they lay their heads on the soft pillow, cover themselves with a warm blanket, and him snuggling her closer. Her heart throbs on his touch and how easily he could say he loves her before he sleep.

How could he say those things when he doesn't mean every bit of it. She couldn't stay under his touch after she knew he was cheating on her, her heart can bear the pain when their skin touches every time. She would cry and stare at the glass window of their room looking at their reflection, where he was sleeping soundly while she was miserable and ruined on the side of bed.

She's lucky enough he hasn't notice anything, he didn't know she couldn't sleep at night. Since every time she'll wake up late, Jungkook is already out to do whatever he needs to do. She knew he would be worried for her, if he knew she wasn't getting enough sleep. Yet again.

He is not worried about you

"He's still my boyfriend," she said looking straight at her reflection on their bathroom, trying to contradict what's in her head.

He doesn't love you anymore

"He loves me" She differs.

If he does, then why would he lie to you?

He doesn't love you that much

He still loves her

"Enough!!!" She shouted glaring at herself in the reflection of the mirror. "Lisa, he loves you"

"Just let him, he will tell you soon enough" "Just trust him, trust him please, Lisa" she told herself with a tear falling on her cheek for the nth time.

She didn't ask him that day, she became the same cowardly person she was before. She was afraid to ask him, she's afraid that if she asks him he'll break up with her. She doesn't want that, she doesn't want to break loose and die of her own water.

She went to the shower area to take a bath and after that she went to their closet to change into a comfortable dress.

It was a long-sleeved pastel blue dress that goes around her mid thigh, with a black Celine belt on her waist to show her curves, before going to the jacket section to get a white trench coat, and a white medium size sling bag with a outside pocket on the back.