I remember the day perfectly, the day Connor and I created my angel.
I was about a week after Graduation, our other best friend, Kassidy, was having a huge party for seniors. Of course we went, it was seriously the biggest party of the year. Because instead of Seniors, it was seniors, juniors and Kassidy's Boyfriend's college friends.
We were drunk, obviously. But, we weren't that drunk, I knew what was going on, and most likely think he did too. I let what happened, happen.
I think the day after was the most confusing day ever. The day flashed though my head.
*FLASHBACK*
I woke up to Connor smiling at me, with that giant beautiful smile of his. I smiled back, his smile is completely contagious. My head started pounding. I rubbed my temples with my fingers. "Here." He handed me some Advil and a glass of water. "Thanks." I took the medicine and he kissed my forehead. "Do you remember anything I told you last night?" He asked taking the glass and setting it on the table next to him. "I think I remember you saying something about liking me."
"Allie, I love you." He said staring into my eyes, I could tell he wasn't lying or joking. My mouth opened but said nothing. He ran his fingers through his hair. "I knew it."
"Connor." I said he name quietly. He looked at me. "I- I-" The words wouldn't leave my mouth. I looked at his lips and then his eyes, which he most likely saw, because right after he kissed me. I felt butterflies and fireworks go off in my stomach.
Later that day we both went home, Kissing each other goodbye. I called Connor that night and it went straight to voice mail. I concluded that his phone died so I just messaged him saying goodnight. I woke up to see I had a voice mail from Connor. "Hey Allie. I am sorry that i didn't answer your call last night, my phone died. So you know how I was suppose to go to California next week, turns out I have to go today, sorry. Uhm.. Bye." The voice mail ended. I decided to Connor, he is probably somewhere in South Dakota by now. It ringed. Once, twice, three times. Then went to voice mail. I just hung up and decided to call him later.
I walked into my kitchen to see my mom, dad, and Mr. and Mrs. Franta sitting at the dining room table. I instantly knew he was lying to me. He always went to California with his parents. While he was at VidCon they would go out and do parental stuff.
Two weeks later I had only talked to Connor. That was when he was in California. He said he didn't talk to me because he was trying to get his feelings together. He told me he still loved me, and then hung up. Later that week I found out I was pregnant. I wanted to tell him, but I was so afraid he would stop loving me. I left him a voice mail a month after I found out telling him it was my turn to get my feelings together.
I never talked to him after that. I watched a couple of his video's on Youtube, but I couldn't watch them with out tearing up. He was so happy in college and I couldn't ruin that. So I didn't. I kept to myself. I stopped talking to Kassidy. I just kept to myself. Staying out of every bodies way. I never went to college, well at least I didn't go to school. It was all online schooling.
*END OF FLASHBACK*
"Momma. Momma." I looked to see Caroline pulling on pants. "Yes baby?" I said picking her up. "ChiChi." She said plainly. ChiChi was Caroline's teddy bear. It was the Teddy bear Connor gave me for my 13th birthday. I walked into the guest room laughing to myself remembering. It was his favorite stuffed animal. He had it since we were five. He gave it to me for a token of our friendship. I handed it to Caroline as she followed me behind me. I sighed remember how I drew him a picture of us when we were at least 4. We were by the pond by my house.
I looked at Caroline who was sitting on the floor talking to ChiChi. I picked her up and we went back out to the living room. I walked of the room, with Caroline on my hip and looked at the door to see Connor standing there with Courtney. He looked sad. No, he was sad. His hair and body may have changed but his facial expressions haven't.
I gulped and walked back into the room before he could see me. I set Caroline on the floor and sat down with her.
"Hi Caroline I am ChiChi and I am going to give you and bunch of kisses." I said in a high pitched voice. I acted as if the bear was giving her kisses and she started cracking up laughing. I put ChiChi down and smirked at her. "And I am Mrs. Mommy and and I am going to love you forever. and tickle the silliness out of you." I said and started tickling her. She threw her back laughing. I blew a raspberry into her neck and she couldn't stop laughing. I stopped tickling her and smiled at her. I picked her up and had he stand up. "Can I have a kiss?" I asked puckering my lips. She sucked he lips into her mouth so I couldn't kiss her. I glared are and started kissing her all over her face, which made her laugh even more. I stopped kissing her and puckered my lips again. She kissed me and gave me a big hug. She let go of me and looked at the door. I did the same to see Connor Standing in the door frame.
