WinterWidow - healing

Stake out

"Hey Nat, I know you are mad, but I was wondering if you wanted to do a stakeout with me?" Clint asks

"You are my best friend dummy" I reply

"Well aren't you mad about the hair?"

"No, it actually looks good, and you are my best friend I still want to hang out with you even after pranks."

"Thanks Nat that means a lot, you are my best friend too." Clint tells me

"Good. However if you dye my hair again, especially a different colour I will hurt you. Thanks for using an 8-wash dye though."

"Of course I won't do that again, I value my life."

"Good, and also pranks won't get in the way of work."

"I got donuts!" Spiderman says walking

"Oh, hi Peter, are you coming with us?" I ask

"Yeah of course, its my first stake out, I'm hyped." Peter says

"All right Kid, lets go." Clint says

We get in the car and sit to watch. After half an hour peter ate all the donuts. He talks for a bit, then I give him some earphones and tell him to listen to music. Then Clint and I talk.

"Nat."

"Yeah?"

"Are we going to talk about what happened yesterday?"

"Yeah, I, you know I can't be that tough around you."

"You can trust me Nat." Clint says

"Well I was sparring with Bucky, and I got a flash back."

"Did it scare you?" Clint asks

"Yes, this time it wasn't just when they took me away him, it was how they punished me, lying on the floor shaking I could feel the whips on my back again, of all the torture over the years, this was the worst, a week of torture, they beat me, left me in the dark room..." I slip into a flash back

Trigger warning, this may be intense for some people.

The trainer pulls me from his arms, this hand slips out of mine and I know I've lost him forever, tears stream down my face. Not for the pain they are about to cause me, no that's nothing compared to the pain of losing him. The pain of when your heart shatters. My body goes limp, and I just accept my fate. They drag me into a dark room, they shove my head into a bucket of water and I don't fight it, just wait until I can get my next breath. My lungs burn, they pull me up for breath, then shove my head back under, my lungs fill with water, the pull me up my body limp. "I think we went to far, get the water out of her lungs."

"She is the black widow, why can't she survive a bit of water."

"I don't know but if you don't save her, we will be in big trouble."

They start pumping the water out of my chest, I cough out all the water. Then they go to whipping me, tears stream down my face, my back is almost numb compared to the pain in my heart.

End of flashback

Clint shakes me

"Nat, what's wrong?"

I answer shaking. "I had another flash back." I say.

Peter sits up and offers me a donut, I take it gratefully and eventually calm down. Peter plays his music for the whole car and we dance and sing along, quietly of course since we are on a stakeout.