Tommyinnt angst

tommy gets hate

Tommy pov:
I woke up a little late today but hey I honestly didn't care. I did the usually got ready and grabed a coke out the fridge. I started my stream while opening my coke and almost instantly 50k joined "HELLO CHAT how are y'all" I ask. They replay with "good WBU" "amazing now that your streaming" "horrible also can you shut up like no one asked for you to tell" "SHUT UP!!" "bro get a life". I tried to ignore the last few but it was hard but I kept talking "so today I'm just gonna be playing some Minecraft with turbo and ranboo." I got on the server with them. The hate part of my chat started to go crazy things "omg there is someone good here" "dude they hate you, you know that right?" " Even your friends don't like you why do you still stay" " they are annoyed by your yelling you know that right?". But 1/4 of my chat were saying "stop it tommy support💜💜". So I kept ignoring the haters. So half way through the stream ranboo had said "shut up Tommy" after I had yelled (ranboo was joking but tommy didn't know) . After that my hate chat was so big like over 3/4 of my chat was saying "see told you" with that I had said "ANYWAY THAT'S ALL FOR TODAY BYE CHAT" and ended my stream. I walked over to my bed and just sat there thinking 'do they hate me...?' thoughts like this became so strong I wasn't focused on what was happening
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Next thing I know I have a knife to my wrist making a cut as blood drips from my arm. By the time I'm done my arm is covered in blood and I have 10-20 cuts witch was 5-10 on each arm. It hurt really bad. But I didn't care I went and got bandages and bandaged my arms then put my hoodie on. (Plz I just did something so don't hate on me this is not real so do not think this is also this is my first part/book so plz don't hate. Wow words in total was- 375 pretty good for first book