Flesh Of The Blade

The Cold Truth

Mary's POV

Taylor and I enter the carnival and played a couple games when we finally saw Zacky and Brian at some bar. Taylor screamed Brian's name, he turn to her and a smile appear as he saw Taylor. They were so cute together. 

I look at Zacky and he was with a girl by his side, I didn't dare to move and just like in movies, Zacky and the girl kissed!

I didn't want to see what would happen next, I just turn away and ran to the beach like if I ran for my life. 

I could hear Taylor and Zacky screaming my name but I didn't want to stop, I fetl free when I was running away from everything. 

When I thought that I was far enough from them I stopped running and sat on the cold sand feeling tears making their way down my cheeks.

Zacky was with a girl and he didn't even told me after all of this? What was wrong with him? Or was it me the problem? Surely it was me. I just met him after all! Why would I cry for someone I barely knew?

But I couldn't helped it, my emotions were over my thoughts and I couldn't stop thinking that I was feeling right with Zacky, but this was all gone now. 

I then felt the urge to cute my legs again, I've been clean for five months but I still had kept a blade on me. I grab the blade in my head with tear still going down, I was stop in my movements when I heard Zacky calling my name, his loud steps on the sand were getting closer to me. I press the blade in my hand so it could still hurt without Zacky noticing. 

Zacky arrive bending down to me, out of breath. I bring my legs close to me, feeling betrayed. 

"Mary! I swear I don't even know who she is, she just jumped on me and I pushed her back, I'm single I swear! I'm so sorry Mary. I-I don't want to lose you, I just met you and I want to keep you by my side, I feel so good with you please! Please Mary.. I just feel this awesome connection between us and I don't want to lose you because of a stupid bitch" He told me, searching for an answer in my eyes, when I don't even know what to say myself. 

If Zacky tells me the truth, which is probably the case, we were feeling the same way about each other. 

I look at him with the tears slowly stopping to ran down my cheeks, 

"It's okay Zacky" I simply looking at him, seeing a smile grew on his face. He put a hand on the side of my face taking the tears away from my cheeks with his thumb, looking really sorry,

"I swear this is the last time that you will share a sad tear because of me" He said looking deeply into my brown eyes, I nod as a small smile started to appear on my face. 

Zacky then grab me bridal style in his arms, a small scream escape my lips because I was surprised. While Zacky walked us to the carnival, I manage to throw the blade away without him noticing. 

Zacky finally put me down, 

"I have to got to the bathroom" I told him, he nod and I enter in the bathroom. 

Blood was still escaping from the pit of my hand, I roll some toilette paper and prepared myself to give some lame excuse to Zacky. 

I exited the bathroom and Zacky immediately spotted my hand, 

"What happened to your hand?" He said taking it gently in his warm one, 

"I fell when I was running" I say trying to hide that I was lying. 

Zacky and I started to walk around trying to find some game to play. 

Then we saw this game that you have to hit as hard as you could with a hammer to make a little bel ring. 

"I'll win this big green teddy bear for you pretty girl" Zacky say in my hear before going to take the hammer, 

"Okay but be careful" I told Zacky, 

"You shouldn't under estimate me" He say sending me a wink before a swung the hammer high in the air before smashing it down making the bell ring loud. I cheer as Zacky grab the big green teddy bear that he promised me. 

"Thank you Zacky" I told him giving him a kiss on the cheek, he smile down at me, 

"I want you to keep this teddy bear because he'll always be there to give you a hug, at night when you're having nightmares or just when you feel alone, this teddy bear will be there as much as I wish I was there for you" Zacky say with so much passion holding in his eyes. I smile up at him feeling better than I ever have. 

"Come on, I'll get you to your place" He said taking the big teddy bear for me as he hold my hand with his free one. 

We walk to my hotel room and he came in because we were both hungry. 

We both sit on the couch face to face and I could see that something was on Zacky's mind.

"What is it Zacky?" I ask him a bit worried and scared,

"It's maybe weird but I don't believe you when you say that you are on a road trip just because you felt like it, and I don't believe you for your hand neither" He say looking worried but how could I lie to him? -Fuck it- I told myself. I took a deep breath before I begin explaining,

"It was because of my parents, they didn't act like real parents. They were doing strong drugs and they were always drunk so there wasn't much food at home. When I would ask for school furniture they would hit me and even put a fork in my hand. So that's why" I say looking at Zacky who seemed on chock. 

"Shit Mary, I'm so sorry, I swear I'll never let someone hurt you ever again" He said giving me a strong hug. I was happy that he didn't left me because of all this shit,

"Now, what happened to your hand?" He ask still concern,

"With all that I've been through, I started to cut and I was about to do it when you came so I shut it in my hand and threw it away" I explain to him, I could see Zacky's eyes started to water, 

"No, Zacky please" I say bringing him in a tight hug, 

"Promise me that you don't have any more blades and that you'll stop cutting" He almost whisper in my neck. 

"I swear Zee" I say kissing his neck softly. 

We pulled away and smile to each other, 

"We should go to bed now, it's getting late" Zacky say as he grab my healing hand gently taking me to my bed. We were both facing each other, I smelt his perfect smelt before drifting into sleep.