A Better Me

" Ain't "

And then I , I broke down
Never ever i thought , i would break like this , but believe me i had enough of it .
I saw my phone ringing ,

* 18 missed calls from Joe , 15 calls from Mannie ... 25 voicemails *

I ignored it all , i can't let them see me like this , this is not who i am , i am way better than this and i deserve way better than this sloppy shit .
I went to the washroom to wash my face .. i stood in front of the mirror and i saw the dried tears on my cheeks ..

Suddenly everything went blank and i could hear ..

" You are a shame for your family and yourself ... Lives for sex ... Playgirl ... Different boys everyday ... Running behind money "

I don't know what came into my mind , i punched the mirror furiously , taking all my rage out on it ... This is what I do , this is what relieves me ,

" He AIN'T nobody to bring me down !! "
" He AIN'T nobody to judge me "
" He AIN'T no father to me !! "
" I AIN'T his daughter "

" YES !!! I AM A DEMON AND I DON'T CARE " i shouted gaining all the courage i had ,

" I am not the one who will break like , I'll bring that bastard down and that's my promise to myself !! "
" Yeah , i'll bring him down " , i smirked and took out a cigarette.

I saw my knuckles bleeding but who cares , i took out my phone and called Joe ,

" Heyy , Chelsey speaking "

" CHELS !!! ARE YOU OKAY !? I AM COMING OVER .. JUST A MINUTE "

" Listen .. i am completely fine , believe me , and yeah i need you to come over . "

" I am coming as soon as I can "

" Yahhh "

I laughed about what will happen to that womanizer pig , JONATHAN ... " What he thought ? He will get through it ... I'll destroy him "

I went to get changed and made myself some coffee .

* Bell rang *

" Might be Joe .. he is quick , isn't he " i went and opened the door , i asked him to come in but the first thing he noticed , was my hand , my knuckles which were bleeding .

" Chels .. what you did to yourself "

" Aah , it's nothing .. come in first "

" What is nothing ?? Your knuckles bleeding and you have no care about it ?? "

" It's okay , stop being dramatic " I noticed some bags in his hand , " What are those ? "

" Guess what's it ? I bought pizza , ice cream and wine for us " He said with excitement , holding the bottle of wine up .

" Aren't you the best " i hugged him .

" Yeah and I'll be the worst if you don't let me do the first to your knuckles "

I giggled .
He came in , kept the food and wine on the kitchen counter and the first thing he did was to pull me up to my bedroom , made me sit on the bed and took out the first aid box .

" Aaargghh .. the ointment is burning my hand "

" Oh really ?? When your knuckles were bleeding , it didn't hurt ?? " Joe sarcastically said ,

I gave him my death stare and then murmured , " No ... It didn't "

He wrapped bandage around my knuckles and fingers , and we headed downstairs .
I sat on the top of the kitchen counter , while he was heating up the pizza and pouring wine .

He asked , " hmm so why you called me up "

" I got a plan .. "
He looked at me with a huge question mark on his face ,
" ... A plan to bring JONATHAN down ... "

" Your father ? Our manufacturer ? "

" Yup , you heard it right and he isn't my father , a man who killed my mother isn't my father and on the other hand , manufacturer , we'll get plenty " i said as i took a sip of wine .. " ahmmm .. you know my choice .. red wine , cheers "

" Chels ... " He sighed
" What's in your mind ? "

" Well , take a look at these .. he is like the one of the biggest manufacturer and a respected person , people don't know his reality .. and i have plenty of witnesses to give a verdict in the court . "

" You are gonna bring him down in this way ? By exposing him ? "

" Yes .. it's the best way , isn't it ? "

" What about proofs ? "

" I said already , i have witnesses , the victims of abuse by Jonathan .. "

" I see .. for this , firstly we need to contact the best lawyer , and then we need to build a strong case "

" Yes , so , you need to contact the lawyer tomorrow , it would be the first thing you do and then you need to search a few and after that we'll visit them . "

" Okay Ma'am " he said with an official tone and that had me cracked up .

" Woah , your laugh sounds good .. you should laugh more often . "

" Laughing isn't my thing " , i walked away with a slice of pizza , " I loooooveeeeee pepperoni "

" And i ... love you.. " Joe muttered to himself with a sigh ..
" Who would have thought that i will see this side of yours , Miss Chelsey Fox ? "

" It's your chance babe .. won't last long " i shooted him a wink and he giggled .

" I should be get going Chels "

" Heyy wait !! It's late .. you can stay over .. "

He looked at me shocked and doubtfully ,

" You can stay over , though we have to share one bed ... I promise ... No funny business ... " I assured him .

" Okay .. I'll stay .. No funny business ."