Will i ever understand myself?

self-hatred

Pierced my ears out of spite
forgot myself for a night
do i hate your guts more than mine?
They say "don't be someone else"
I can't help it if you make me hate everything
i hate my face
i hate the way people say my name
you ruined everything for me.
I hate my favorite tv show,
because it's the one that you like most
I told you about it last September
I can't take it anymore.