Will i ever understand myself?

him. 2

I cry every night begging God to take me because i'm tired of trying it myself.
Why don't you care for me anymore?
Don't you understand that i need you?
I don't care if i'm selfish, i just need you.
Please just talk to me.
I don't know how much longer i can do this.
Everything is getting harder.
What happened to us?
Staying up all night comforting eachother.
I feel like everything is caving in on me.
You were all i had left
Is it my fault? Did i do this?