𝐦𝐞𝐦𝐨𝐫𝐲 𝐥𝐚𝐧𝐞 .

slight vent pt smth

tw since it ' s a vent and because i don ' t want people asking for one , if you do on a vent post stfu respectfully <3

' tell me the truth , you won ' t get in trouble "
is the biggest lie i ' ve been told

' why are you so sleepy ?? this is why you ' re always late to school ! "
you keep telling me to study study study and to study ahead to make my studying ' easier ' when it just stresses me out .

' don ' t worry about being fat anak , just eat '
then why do you get mad abt the fact that i ' m sad about how i ' m so fat then ?

' i like you '
like everyone else please go away

' good job , now learn this '
i just spent 3 hours at my desk memorizing states i don ' t want to study ahead and memorize cities .

' why are you not talking to us anymore '
you fucking told me my nose was ugly and never included me in anything shut the fuck up bailey

' why are you always stuck in your room '
because there ' s nothing i want to do outside of it

' why are you crying over little things like ants ?? people are going to think of you as weak . '
1 didn ' t you say it ' s ok if people see me as weak yesterday ? 2 ants crawled out of my mouth once why are you so weirded out by me being scared of them

' you sleep so early , yet wake up so late '
i stay up at night to get away from this shitty ass world , i already long for an alternate universe to get away from all of this bullshit

' why are you afraid of being near me ? '
because men scare me and because kids like you are likely to kiss me when i need to be shut up by you like a puppet . i ' m not a fucking puppet i ' m human . a kiss will just make me fucking want to kill you or me so shut the fuck up christopher .

if i died before turning 6 do you think i ' d be happier ? i hope i would be .