Heartstrings

String #4

Aly's POV

"Say, will you go out with me?"  Bago pa man ako magsalita, nagsalita pa siya ulit.

"It was at the entrance exam for Dyecolos Academy. I thought I was all ready, but I forgot my lead pencil. All the students who will be taking the exam already went inside the classroom. I thought I had no chance taking the exam, but you went outside of the classroom and gave me an extra one and smiled. I thought it was just out of pity, but it surprised me. I was about to walk out when you suddenly grabbed my wrist and asked how I did with the exam. From that day on, I never forget even once the smile you gave me. When I noticed you in the academy, you made me smile everyday just by watching you. One day, my eyes just keep looking for you and I unconsciously fell in love. When you fell in love with Kai, I always watched you and was jealous to death. I always loved you. I thought my world, you, was over. I heard you confessed to Kai. It was at the library, right?" He sounded so sad, but I can't help thinking this.

"Nainlove ka na nun?" Ang gusto ko sabihin, pero hindi ko masabi. Kidding aside, I'm speechless but I want to hear his feelings. It's the least I can do for him.

"At that time, I thought my feelings were unrequited that was not meant to be said. But even if I have this chance to say it after he rejected you, still I know that your heart is not yet ready to love again. It also seems that the one who can make you love again for something special is not me." Hindi na ako makatingin sa kanya dahil sa mga sinasabi niya.

"I'm sorry, but I only see you as a bestfiend and nothing more-will be nothing more." It really hurts to reject him like this but if I don't tell him the truth, I'll just leave him hanging.

"Thank you very much for you feelings, I appreciated them. I don't want to hurt you because of me but yeah, I guess I  just did. But someday, you will find a woman who loves you more than a friend. At least, I want to keep my friendship with you. I'm sorry, but is that selfish of me? I don't want to lose you as a friend and be strangers." Yun na lang nasabi ko at umiyak na ng tuluyan. Pinunasan niya mga luha ko gamit yung sleeve niya.

"I know I will be rejected and expected it to be this way, that's why I moved on before I even confessed. Still, I guess it still hurts even after I confessed." He smiled as he said that. That fake smile is what I really don't want to see.

"Don't worry. I'll fully move on. I won't disappear on your life so please, don't cry." He added and still continued wiping my tears 

I can't help, but hug him and he hugged me back. Thank God, I have a friend like him.

Nung maayos na kami, may naalala akong dapat sabihin sa kanya. 

"Nga pala, magbabakasyon ako sa Canada. April 2 at 8 AM yung flight." Ngiting sabi ko sa kanya. I hope he sees me off, but I think I'm going to be selfish. I just sighed.

"Don't feel down, just enjoy. I'm alright seeing you off though. How many days will you stay there?" I hope he's truly okay for seeing me off.

"You don't need to see me off. Hmm, di ko alam eh, pero message ko sayo. Don't worry." I assured him. Ayoko ng awkwardness sa aming dalawa. (ಥ﹏ಥ)