Growing up McGarrett

The Party - Part 1

After the shower I felt a bit better. I put on some upbeat tunes to try to get myself in the mood. Devil Sam was still there, buoying me up for a night of fun, but I felt flat. The rollercoaster had stopped and left me somehow in limbo. I threw on some comfy clothes and went down to dinner with Danny. Again my stomach flipped at the sight of the plate full of food but I knew I had to force myself to eat it if I was to convince Danny not to worry about me. Surely knowing what he did he should be worried about me anyway but he didn't seem to care about that. Wow his best friend, partner and godfather to his son was dead and he was carrying on like it was any other Saturday! Is this what happens when people die? They're immediately forgotten? Danny's voice broke through my thoughts.
Danny - "Sam?"
Me - "What? Oh sorry I was just daydreaming". I force a smile.
His expression went back to concerned.
Danny - "Are you sure you feel ok?"
Me - "Yeah! I feel great honestly". I shovel a fork full of Mac and cheese into my mouth to prove my point.
He gives me another concerned look but relaxes again and starts to prattle on about something else.

I make it through the dinner, eating enough to satisfy Danny that he has nothing to worry about. Then I excuse myself to my room, go to my bathroom and promptly make myself throw it all back up. How the hell is he eating and chatting normally when my father is lying dead somewhere? I feel like I'm going crazy. Devil Sam comes to the rescue. Forget about him! Stick with your plan. Nothing to lose now! I clean myself up and go back downstairs. Snuggling up on the couch I ask Danny to watch something with me. All normal and at least if we're watching something he won't be talking all the time. Towards the middle of the film I lean into him and start to close my eyes. He falls for it, waking me up and telling me to go to bed. I put up a false protest saying I'm not tired and it's not my bed time but adding a big yawn for effect.
Danny - "OK kiddo it might not be your bedtime but you are obviously exhausted. Go on up to bed."
Me - "But Danno!". I use my best whiny voice knowing how much that annoys the adults in my life.
Danny getting slightly annoyed - "No buts young lady, you were sick today and your system needs rest. Get your butt up to bed now!"
Me - "But I want to watch the film". I'm pushing his buttons but that would be normal for me. Don't want to make him suspicious about anything.
Danny sighs trying to keep his temper in check, - "Samantha you were falling asleep..."
Me - "I wasn't I was just resting my eyes"!
Danny - "You were falling asleep! I'm not arguing with you anymore. Get up to bed or you'll be going with a sore backside!".
Me - "Fine! I'm going!". I stomp off towards the stairs. Then I stop and turn around.
Me, in a tired voice, - "Danno I'm sorry, will you come up to say goodnight?". I watch him visibly soften.
Danny - "Of course I'll be up in a minute. Don't forget to brush your teeth."

Plan in motion, I climb into bed fully dressed and pull the covers up to my chin. I was worried when I was planning that I might actually fall asleep at this part of the night but now I know that won't happen. I hear Danny coming and close my eyes, breathing softly. He knocks but of course I don't answer so he comes in quietly. The light from the hall falls across my 'sleeping' face. He comes over and touches my forehead.
Danny - "Sleep well kiddo". He leaves, closing the door behind him. YES it worked, you are a master Sam! I give it a while until I hear a game on the tv, then put the next part into motion. I turn on my flashlight, don't want to trip this time. I grab my bag with my party clothes and climb out the window. This time I don't hesitate on the ledge, I swing out and down to the ground. I check on Danny. He's on the couch, game on TV but no beer and he's talking animatedly on his phone. My stomach flips, maybe tonight isn't the night to do this! Devil Sam scoffs, off course tonight is the perfect night to do this, who knows what happens after this, you could be shipped off to your aunt on the mainland. I grab my bike and hit the road, no going back now.

When I get to Kimmy's I can hear the music booming from the back. I let myself in and up to her room without Todd seeing me. Kimmy is already dressed in a short pink dress. She's obviously giddy about tonight and yaks away while I change into the clothes I brought, a crop top and short skirt. Checking myself in the mirror the first thing I think is how the Commander would have an aneurysm if he saw me. But he's not going to see me, ever again. I mumble fuck him! Kimmy looks at me strangely and again asks if I'm ok. I snap that I'm fine and to quit bugging me!
Kimmy - "What the fuck is eating you?!"
Me - "Maybe everyone's life isn't as perfect as yours!"
Kimmy - "Go to hell Sam!"
Me - "You first!"
She turns and stomps out of her room slamming the door behind her. My emotional rollercoaster is on rage mode so all I think is fuck her too! I grab some makeup and by the time I'm done I'd pass for at least 16. Slipping on a pair of heels I can barely walk in, I take one last look in the mirror. Damn girl you look fine now let's go party!