I'm so tired.I'm so tired of the lies being spread about me.I'm so tired of having to shake every second from 10:11 through11:33, Monday through Friday.I'm so tired of having to avoid people because of the way they make people perceive me.I'm so tired.Sleep does not help.I sleep for 12 hours and nothing I sleep for more, and nothing.So I must resort to something else.Something that actually helps.Something that does not allow me to wear short sleeves.Something that does not allow me to wear shorts or skirts.Unless I cover it up, but that's a lot of work.So I go about my days knowing the things that have been said."they were crazy""they were toxic""they wouldn't say they loved me."but has anyone heard the full story?Did anyone ever tell them of the pain that I behold?Did anyone ever stop to think that my head and heart were already pounding?Did anyone ever stop to defend me?No, no one did.Because everyone always manages to pin the blame on me.Despite how hard I try, whether if I try to forgive,whether I try to explain,whether I try to ignore.Someone is always knocking on that irritating door.So I'm just tired.I wish to sleep forever.because in my dreams everybody loves me.Even you who ripped my heart in two.Even the people who make fun of me and my name.Even the people who wont acknowledge me.In my dreams I am accepted and loved,so I just wish I never woke up.
