Smereldo Tales Vol 2 / Taekook (Taehyung and Jungkook)

Cold Hands and Steady Breaths

*WARNING: Mention of suicide*

Jungkook POV

The person just stayed quiet until I heard slight sniffling.

Are they crying?

''You know I don't know if you enjoy my company but I do enjoy speaking with you, I enjoy speaking with all my patients.''

I almost didn't recognize him, his voice was worn out a bit and It sounded like he was crying.

What happened?

Is he leaving?

''I told my friend about you and his boyfriend knew you he said I shouldn't come here anymore.''

I couldn't think, my mind went blank. If he knows about what I do does he not want to be friends anymore? Will he think of me as bad? Will I be left alone again?

''But I won them over eventually since you can't see me and you don't know my name...........I still want to be your friend bunny even if you don't want to because no one deserves to be anyone while going through this.

Why is he so adamant bout staying with me? Even after his friends warn him. He should know I am a bad guy. Well, at least the rumors say so.

''I originally did want to leave because I was a bit scared of you. But I was scared cause I saw myself in you when they told me how you drove off the cliff because your lover betrayed you when they said how you were lied to, manipulated and played with. You have had it hard haven't you bunny?''

He said in a hushed voice as the hand running through my hair stopping and began patting my head as if saying 'It's ok'. 

3rd POV

Jungkook felt saddened by the past memories he locked away even if it was just a week ago he wanted his brain to delete it all.

He felt all the pain he tried so hard not to focus on all coming back. Pain hid away with no closure or acceptance is like a needle in your bed, one wrong move and it might be all over.

''I used to be the same way. I was so alone and in so much pain. I thought no one cared for me in this world so why not try again in the next. I tried to commit suicide by overdosing on sleeping pills but ended up in a coma instead.'' He laughed bitterly

'Kid-'

Jungkook wanted so badly to comfort his friend but what could he do? Nothing in this state.

While Tata had his beautiful caramel eyes glazed in tears threatening to fall any moment.

'' I had no one with me I was all alone in my room nothing but the sounds of rain and footsteps accompanied me to sleep and conversate with. I couldn't tell the difference between days, weeks and months. I wanted to die and there was no one to tell me no, there was no one to hit me, scream and me or scold me because it had no one who cared at that moment.''

''Until my soulmate came he was doing the same thing I am doing now just messing around in the hospital talking to coma patients keeping them company. He was my light and my reason to live.''

Jungkook listened to the boy's story attentively wanting nothing more than to give his friend a hug but Jungkook wasn't good at comforting people but he at least wanted to try for his friend. If only he hadn't paid such close attention maybe he would have felt the pain in his chest or slight bitterness on his tongue.

''This is why I do this. I want to give you early what I got late so you won't have to experience the middle.''

Tae started silently crying his face hidden at the side of Jungkook buried in the bed all his past memories crashing and colliding in his head.

Jungkook on the other hand felt useless totally useless. Someone who he cared for and who cared for him is crying and he couldn't do anything at all.

''That's why I won't leave you alone Jungkook.''

This was the first time he heard him call him by his name Jungkook's breath hitched at the old name and couldn't help but smile reminiscently in his head.

''I don't feel that well today I feel a bit tired can I just sleep here a while.''

'Ok kid'

Tata laid his head down on Jungkook's bed burying his head in folded arms.

All was still the only sounds were the air condition and their still breaths.

Jungkook POV

I suddenly felt an ice-cold hand holding my hand tightly. He was always cold and it saddened me somehow.

Usually I would not let people touch me like this but he's sad so I will allow it this once for the sake of our friendship.

3rd POV

And that's how this day went Tata just holding Jungkook's hands until his cold hands too became warm.

But unknowing to Jungkook his hands tightened around Tata's holding it very slightly. The only thing in his mind was the need to comfort his friend.