POSSIBLY | MinChan AU

CHAPTER 2 | Words

[a/n: A lot of point of views ahead so please be mindful of whose pov you are reading]

Bangchan's Point of View

Why am I so nervous? I'm just picking him up. But then again it will be the first night we will spend together. With just the two of us alone. I use to go to his house to sleep over during our elementary and high school days. Things just started to change when we reach college. This whole situation just gives me married couple vibes. Having their honeymoon after the wedding type of thing. But of course without the romance. 

"Let's go?" a voice pulls me out of my thoughts. Upon looking behind me, I see him standing there with his brushing his hand through his damped hair. How could someone look so mesmerizing?

"Yeah." I simply responded, why am I lacking words to say all of a sudden? And like a while ago it was a silent walk to our building. I would glance at him from time to time. Mostly looking at his hand because I wanted to hold it so badly. But, who in the world holds their best friend's hand casually? I want to intertwine my fingers with his and enjoy the late-night breeze. But I can't because I know he would feel awkward about it. Once we were able to reach our building, I mustered the courage to speak to him.

"I placed your things in your room, I tried organizing it as best as I could. I also cooked dinner for the two of us. So, after you shower, we could eat." I explain as we got in the elevator. He smiles at me, did he like what I did? Man, I would give anything to see him smile like that. Moments like these are so precious. I made my moon smile. 

"Thank you for doing that, at least all I need to do is unpack. Don't worry I won't take long in the shower." He answers, then the atmosphere once again grew silent. Why are our conversations like this? It's so short, unlike before. We could talk for hours on end and still be able to think of topics the day after. I miss how we use to be.

I open the door for him and let him in first. And as I followed after him the urge to hug him from behind and give him kisses on his nape and cheeks becomes stronger. But it's just simply wrong, he is only my best friend, just my best friend and nothing else. But I want it to be something else, something much more. He headed straight to his room, and I went to the kitchen. I got the bowls, chopsticks and spoons and prepared the table. After which I got the pot of Kimchi stew I made. I placed fishcakes, enoki mushrooms, pork belly and noodles into it so that he would have a satisfying meal. When everything was set I sat down and waited for him. 

I scrolled through the photos on my phone, brushing over all the memories we have of each other. Until one photo caught my attention. It is a very old photo of us, 4 years old to be specific. He was the one who took this shot. We were on our way to our retreat in Busan, and while waiting for the teachers to let us in the bus he took my phone and told me to smile and so I did. I didn't know it would be the last time I would see him smile this wide. We sat together and he even fell asleep on my shoulder. But now our closeness just slowly faded. Maybe because I moved houses? I'm not able to give him more time? I don't even know anymore. 

Sometimes I wonder maybe he has someone else that is why he is keeping his distance from me. I would completely understand though if he does, no one is holding him back from having a relationship. But hopefully, he doesn't, I don't know if I can forgive myself for not confessing before if I knew he has someone already. But how do I ask him? Should I even ask him? I don't think it's a good idea to. I'm too afraid of what his answer would be. I'm being selfish about something and someone who isn't even mine to begin with. 

"You prepared a lot." He comments as he walked towards the dining table. He sat on the chair opposite mine. He stared straight at me with a blank expression.