Spurt Of Love ʜ.s ғᴀɴғɪᴄ

•I want all of you•

The day was spent as usual. Hazel kept smirking at me when I told her Harry and I exchanged numbers. I kept myself busy with work and Hazel also respected my privacy, not pushing or asking me what we did but her smirks tells me she thinks Harry and I did something and we didn't, we just talked. Or maybe more than that but it was all in the thoughts.

I didn't tell her about my dream which makes me realize that if I can't tell my best friend what I saw, how am I supposed to tell Harry about it?

Yeah hi I know we just met and everything but I saw you in between my legs in a dream. Real nice.

I make an absurd statement in my head and cringe over it. I'm so stupid. Why did I even tell him that? We dream, it's normal, end of story.

Though I know why I had the sudden urge to tell him about that dream. It felt special. It made me feel special. And I wanted him to know how special he made me feel after ages. He's the reason why I'm not afraid to shut an eye anymore. I want to dream about him. I wanna keep dreaming about him and never wake up.

God! How I wanted him to ask me out the first time we bumped into eachother. I want him. I'm craving for him. It was stupid of me when I thought I'd say no if he asked me for a night stand and that he'd be like that one person who freaked out on me. I wanna go back to that moment and ask him myself. I have my needs and I need him. I mean I could ask him even now but I don't know how to. Now I'm just caring for his feelings and mine. The last time I asked him if he wanted me for a fuck he denied but maybe looking back at the circumstances he wanted to prove a point.

I avoided checking my phone because I know he must've texted, asking me what I saw in the dream. I want to tell him so bad. I even want to text him to come at my place or maybe invite me over and we'll forget we've even seen each other before. We'll do things we're supposed to do and get on with it.

Maybe it's just lust. Maybe I just want him. I keep imagining his body and how beautiful he is. Maybe I'm just missing the feeling of being in someone's arms but I know I'm scared. As soon as I think of having an intimacy with him, I know I'll fall for him even harder than I already have.

Is that really it? Am i falling for him?

I head back to my dorm after a long day. It's already 4 in the evening. I wanted to get done with my assignments and felt like spending time in library. Hazel had joined me and we sat in comfortable silence but my mind kept racing around Harry and what am I supposed to do with all this. I freshen up and make a vague plan in my head but it's all useless. Though freshening up helped a little to clear my mind and I wanted that to get me ready for what I'm about to deal with.

Hazza
oh that's really cool! I love showing up unannounced in dreams lol

*after 5 minutes*

Hazza
What did you see?

Hazza
what sort of dream?

*after 15 minutes*

Hazza
Hey! come back tell me now I'm curious. What did you see?😫

*After another 5 minutes*

Hazza
Jane!

Hazza
JANE!

Hazza
sorry I didn't mean to shout but JANEEEEEEEEE! Come back please I'm sitting in my shop's toilet just to text you come back come back come back!😫😫

Hazza
okay I guess you're busy or something😔 whether you intended on killing me with curiosity or not, that happened anyway. This is my ghost typing and my ghost would like to know what you saw in your dream. So, if you're comfortable with it and if it's fine, call me when you get these messages.
H x