jude bellingham 𝐼𝑚𝑎𝑔𝑖𝑛𝑒𝑠

Jude Bellingham - i won, you lost

*Jude is a fuckboy in this even though i'm pretty sure he's not like that in real life, all my stories are imaginary so they might not match with reality*

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you know that feeling after you break up with someone when you deep down know that you could easily been end game?
the emptiness and how just drained you feel.
then after that you perhaps feel sad or good asf depending on how it ended between you and that person.

things felt good to say the least. one month free from the poisoning person that took over every single joyful thing in my life, trying to fool me.
i thought he knew better then to try and manipulate me. but what can i say life is full of surprises.

after my family moved to Germany because of dad's job i meet Jude at a party.
he approached me that night, flirting with me and i agreed on giving him my instagram @

we meet a couple times, dates you might say and later on hung out everyday.
and after 3 weeks of hanging out he asked me to be his girlfriend, i was so head over heals so of course i said yes. jude made me feel affection and loved like never before.
He would buy me flowers and gifts, tell me how beautiful i was, listen to me when i needed someone to talk to and i could trust him with everything.

well at least until about 2 months ago.

he got distant but would get upset and mad at me when i would hang out with my friends telling me i wasn't loyal. he would go to parties and be seen with girls all up on him but to him that wasn't cheating and i was the crazy one apparently.

one day that thin thread that was keeping us together snapped.
one of my friends sent a picture of him and another girl in bed. i wasn't even surprised at that point, he proved so many times over and over again that he was childish and just playing with me like i wasn't worth anything. i knew i couldn't deal with him anymore.
we were done for good.

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"babe you got everything?" Joshua said from besides me giving my hand a squeeze. his big warm hand which was perfectly sculpted for mine. his gesture made me feel safe, i knew i could trust him.
"yup, everything is here" i said back in a low voice still enough for him to hear.
as we got closer to the entrance the soft music and people talking could be heard through the expensive building.

inside was loads of people we knew, either they were friends from Joshua's team, other players or just friends we knew for a long time. the tables were neatly decorated with the expensive looking decor and glassware.

my hand was still in a secure hold around Joshuas as he walked in front of me gently pushing past the crowd of people leading me behind him.
the bar with the bright colors fading into each other made the small bar stand out in the background.
"let's get a refresher before we have to sit down" he gently pulled me into his side as he leaned down to my ear. his warm breath brushed against my soft skin and his warm hand rested against my waist.
i nodded at his request leaning up to his ear.
"a gin and tonic please" and i pressed my lips to his soft skin on his cheek. the soft kiss only lasted for a second before i stepped away, he gave me a wink and stepped forward to the bar.

i took a quick look around and saw the only person i didn't want to see ever. but there he was, laughing with some friends siping on a glass that was most likely some type of alcohol beverage.
he still looked the same since last, his hair was newly trimmed and he was dressed in a white button up, the top once unbuttoned with a pair of fancy navy blue pants.