...We're Dads. (NAMJIN)

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silence

we all just stood there

no one daring to make a move

dad had his eyes set on appa

appa looked like he just saw a ghost-

"a-appa?" jimin whispered holding taehyungs hand

"uh h-hoseok...push the nurses call bottom..?" appa said eyes dead set on dad

hoseok sprung into action

"baby...? can you hear me..?" appa said approaching dad

nothing

"can you blink baby?" appa said stroking dads hair

nothing

"what's wrong?!?" bea said rushing into the room along side dr taemin

"dad." taehyung pointed

i looked at my brothers all not knowing what to do but look at dr taemin

he rushed over pulling out a little flashlight and checking dads eyes

"seokjin if you can hear me please do anything to respond."

nothing

"jin it's bea i need to know if u can hear us? show me anything."

nothing

"baby...? baby please?" appa whispered on the verge of tears grabbing dads hand

nothing

"daddy..?" jungkook said.

the heart monitor started to speed up

dads eyes rolled back inside his head

"seokjin?!" appa screamed

i understood what was happening and acted fast

"hoseok grab taehyung, jimin jungkook come on!" i hurriedly said getting my brothers out of the room as soon as possible

"namjoon move!" bea said pushing appa to the side

they immediately started working on dad

"damnit! he's seizing!" dr taemin gritted out

the younger boys were already rushing towards the waiting room as the nurses rushed in

i stayed behind in the doorway for a moment

appa stood crying helpless watching dad's condition

appa needed to be a husband right now and i needed to prevent my young brothers from being scarred if something went wrong right now with dad

as i reached the waiting room all the boys sat pale

"hey hey come on now dad will be fine!" i said softly holding jungkook close

"he was shaking hyung.. so much.." hoseok whispered

my eyes started to burn "you saw.."

"he's dying isn't he.." jimin said

"minie-" taehyung frowned

"i'm just asking..you saw what happened!"

"he's just in a different place." jungkook frowned

"different place?" taehyung asked

"like heaven?" hoseok added

"no like in a dream.." jungkook responded hugging me tighter

we all sat there

"what do you mean?" hoseok asked

"mm it's like he's a ghost but not..he sees everything, we just can't see him." jungkook shrugged nuzzling into my chest

"and i thought i was crazy-"

"taehyung he's little be nice!"

"hyung you can't be serious-"

"tae not now." jimin whispered holding his twins hand a little tighter

taehyung sighed with a nod "ok jiminie."

appa said he has an active mind and to not worry about it

...but whenever jungkook speaks about it, he does it in so much detail i can't help but wonder if what he's saying is truly real

i shake my head at the thought

"hyung what happens now?"jungkook asked

"we wait for doctor taemin to make dad better.." i responded

"what if doctor taemin can't fix him hyung? what do we do then?" jimin asked sadly

"then we just p-pray he wakes up.."

"what if he doesn't..?" taehyung added

"we mourn." hoseok whispered loud enough for all of us to hear

"how can you mourn someone you don't know?" taehyung asked

"people do it with celebrities all the time tae."

more silence

an hour rolled by

"boys?"

we looked up to see nana and papa (jin's parents) walking towards us

jungkook instantly ran to papa just wanting to be embraced

"are you guys ok?" nana asked pulling us into a group hug

"pretty average." hoseok chuckled dryly

she kissed his head. "well your father is gonna stay here tonight so you're gonna come stay with us"

"he'll be back tomorrow right?" hoseok asked

"he might be here all week why?"

he frowned. "it's nothing"

nana simply nodded

but i knew that he was referring to the dance

outfits, transportation, pictures

appa said he had it

but not really anymore

but if i were also going appa would really prioritize it

as we made our way to nana and papas i texted johnny

"how would you react if i said i'd go to the dance ONLY to ensure my brother could go?"

"i'd say i'm ready to see you shake that ass bitch"

"never mind i'm not going-"

"stopppp i was playing...but on a serious note i'd say that's rather sweet of you because hoseok was REALLY looking forward to it"

"yea he needs a little happiness since things with my dad are looking a little bad right now"

"bad..?"

"i think...he might be dying for real this time"

"yoongi i have no words-"

"me either-"

"IF he does pass at least he won't be in pain or suffering anymore"

i thought for a moment

was he in pain?

have we been keeping him in endless pain?

my blood turned cold

"yea...i got to go i'll text  you later night ok?"

"yea for sure! love you man"

"love you"