Even If U Don't Love Me [Completed]

P19: It's not your fault

Author POV

Team awakes. He knew he was at home. He came out of the room looking for his mom and dad, but nobody was home. He came out of the house and did not see anyone passing by in his home area. He was puzzled. The area of ​​his house is always filled with people passing by. For a moment he knew it was a dream, a dream he had always wanted. A quiet dream where no one bothers or bullies him. He headed to the beach near his house. He approached the shore. Playing in the water with his feet. Sitting on the sand while breathing in the calm air and for a moment he felt that his cheeks had been wet with his own tears.

"Hia, where are you? Why did you leave me alone here? Who will defend me if I am bullied? Who will defend me if I am harassed? Who will defend me if I am often referred to as your shadow? Where is your promise? You promised to take care of me, you promised to come and see me. But you did the opposite." Team was still crying as he folded his body, put his hands on both his knees and buried his face on his hands.

"Team." Suddenly a voice was heard that was no longer unfamiliar to Team. The voice he missed so much. The voice he desperately looked forward to calling his name. He still closed his eyes hoping that the voice would call him back. "Pao." He gave up. He opened his eyes and looked up. The tears kept flowing. He gets up from his seat and hugged the figure who called his name a moment ago. Yes, that was Boun, the person he had been waiting for all this time. The person who made him to study at the same university just to see him.

"Hia, this is really you, isn't it? I'm not dreaming, is it? You're really hia, aren't you standing in front of me?" Team asked after releasing his hug. "Pao, it's me. Your Hia. Have you forgotten your hia? Hurm?" Boun replied in a joking tone while wiping Team's tears. "Forget you? How dare you say I forgot you? While I was persistent to go to the same university with you, you said I forgot you hia?" Team becomes angry. He hit Boun's chest with his hands. "Oi, my Team is fierce." Boun said while holding both hands of Team who had been hitting his chest. "Team, I'm sorry, huh? Forgive me. I couldn't meet you earlier. Forgive me if what happened hurt my Team's heart, forgive me for leaving without telling you, nah? Forgive me pretty, please nah?" Boun continued saying sorry while hugged the figure who cried non -stop in front of him.

"No hia, this isn't all hia's fault. It's all my fault. If I don't tell you to come back to see me, you won't have an accident, and maybe you're still alive now. I'm stubborn, I forced you to come back even though you said you were busy with year -end assignments. It's all my fault. " Team said still sobbing. "Pao, look at me. No one is wrong in this matter, this is not your fault, not my fault or Win either." Boun said with a smile looking at Team. "Hia, do you know P'Win?" Team asked while wiping away his tears. "Team, I know I'm the quiet type but shouldn't I not know that there are people who look exactly like me? Hurm?" Boun said while patting Team's head. Team smiled. He remembered Win. He imagined what if Boun and Win were sitting next to each other.

"You like Win, right?" Boun asked. Team's face turned red but not because he was crying but because he was embarrassed, shy when Boun knew what was in his heart. Yes, he admits he once liked Boun, yet there is one side where Win makes him comfortable in a different way. Boun looked at Team. He smiled. He knows what Team feels right now. Maybe this is the best path to everything. Yes, he admits he once liked Team. However, destiny says otherwise. He had to leave unprepared. He had to leave in a state of failing to tell Team that he liked that chubby guy. He knows that Team likes him but he is scared, Afraid if Team will be hurt again, because of that he tries to get into a good university to pull Team out of their village. However, He did not have time to do all that, when he had to go away forever.

"Team, listen to Hia, nah? Now is the time where you have to forget everything. Forget me who is afraid to express my feelings. Win is the best replacement to replace me. You like Win. Win also likes you. The difference between Win and me is, I didn't have time to express my feelings to you. I always reminded myself that I will confess everything when the time is right. Hahaha, but time can't be postponed. I left without expressing my feelings. So, Team, don't let go of Win. Although you lost me, but Win is there to heal the wounds I've made in your heart. Team, I love you, even though it's late, but I still want to tell you so that I'm free to leave." Boun's tears flowed without him realizing it.

Team looking at the figure he once loved. "Hia, thank you for everything. Thank you for always taking care of me. Thank you for daring to express hia feelings even if it's late. But I'm thankful, at least, I'm not the only one who likes hia in this relationship. Hia, I let you go. Thank you for being present even in this way." Team said and hugged his hia for the last time.

"Team, promise me that you will always be happy no matter who you with?" Asked Boun after releasing his hug and holding out his little finger in front of Team. Team without hesitation immediately grabbed the finger with his finger. "I promise, hia." Team said with a smile. He was sad but forced himself to remain calm. He knew it would be hard for Boun to leave him in this state. So, he tried to calm down in front of Boun. "Now, this is my Team." Boun said and hugged him back. This time longer and tighter. Team buried his face in Boun's shoulder. He will miss the figure forever.

"Team!" Team awake but this time in real life. In real life where he once wants to run away from everything. However, not anymore now. He promises Boun that he will always be happy. Team saw the figure that woke him up just now. The figure looked very worried. "Team, are you okay? Do you need water? Or do you need anything else?" asked the figure without stopping. "P, one by one. I need water. Thirsty." said Team while holding his neck signifying that he was thirsty. Immediately, Win poured water and gave it to Team. Team drank until it ran out and returned the cup to Win. "Want more?" Team shook. Win nodded and returned to Team. Without Win knows, the figure in front of him suddenly hug him. Ah, that hug was something he really missed. Win did not let go this chance and hug Team back.

"Team, I'm sorry for ever-" Win's word cut. "Shhh." Team interrupted Win's word. "P, I had a dream. Dream of meeting hia." Say Team who are still hugging Win. "Hia said, he doesn't blame anyone for what happened. So don't apologize anymore." Team continued then released his hug then held both sides of Win's cheeks with his hands. "Hia also said that, you are the best choice to replace his place. Make me feel safe once again but in your way." Team continued with a smile.

Happy, grateful. That's how Win feels right now. He immediately hugged Team once again. "Thank you, Team for this opportunity. I promise I will never disappoint you or Boun. I promise to Boun to always take care of you. To always love you more than Boun." Win said as he tightened his hug.

To be continued.