Even If U Don't Love Me [Completed]

P18: Stay or Leave?

"Hia already dead?" Team asked.

"Te...Team, since when are you there? Did you hear everything?" Win asked.

"Tell me P, what do you mean by hia already die?" Team asked almost shout at Win.

"Team calm down, take a breath. We will talk about this matter after this. P knows all this happened suddenly but you have to calm down first. That way, we can talk. P promise that P will tell you everything. Calm down first, Team." Win approached Team and hugged him while gently patted his back.

Team couldn't calm down, he kept crying. Another fact that happened without him knowing. Another fact is revealed where he loses the figure of his hia completely. 'What does P mean when he says he's the cause?' Team thought. But the longer he thought, the more out of control his physics became. He shouts calling Boun's name. Win, who was still in a state of hugging him, continued to try to calm him down. He knows Team is in a phase of not being able to control his emotions, he tries to calm Team down.

Once Team looks calm, Win goes to the kitchen to fetch water to give to Team. However, after Win left the room, Team locks the door room, making Win worried back about Team's condition. He didn't hear Team scream. Situations like this, which make Win even more frightened, he doesn't like it when Team keeps silent.

"Team, open this door dear. Don't be like this, I promises that I will tell you everything. You want to know the truth, right? Nong, please open this door. If you want me to give you space and time for you, I will give and I will wait until you're ready. I know you're disturbed that's why I left you alone. But promise me don't do stupid things. I will wait in front. If you're calm and want to hear it all, I'm at the front. " Win sighed. He didn't expect the situation to be like this, he didn't expect that Team would know in a situation that he wasn't ready for.

After 3 hours in the room, Team come out from the room. Win run toward Team to hug him but Team did not return the hug, he just kept quiet. Win doesn't care, he's thankful that Team came out safe. Win pull Team to sit on the couch and he moves to the kitchen to fetch water. After that, Win went back to Team and gave the water to Team. Team took and drank the water until it ran out. Win took the empty cup from Team's hand and placed it on the table near the couch. Quiet atmosphere.

"P, I'm trying to think what you mean by saying that you were the cause of Hia's death. But I can't think straight. Explain P, what do you mean by your words just now?" Team broke the silence with his question. "Team, are you sure you're ready to hear it all? I'll tell you when you're really ready." Win asks to make sure that Team is ready enough to take it all.

"P, tell me everything." Win sighed. He told everything from his plan to return to his house until the accident that claimed the life of Team's beloved hia. After telling everything to the Team, Win waited for a response from the Team. Team just kept quiet. Silence without talking. "Team. Are you okay? Please don't stay silent. Say something. If you want to hit me, just hit me. But please don't torture me with your silence. Team." Win called again. "P, I'm tired. Let me sleep for a while, I want to wake up from this dream. I want to wake up where hia is still there, I want to wake up. I'm sure everything that happened was just a nightmare." Team said. Win just nodded, he can't force Team to accept it.

Win leads Team to enter the room but they stop in the middle of the road when Team turns around. "P, the accident happened when you were going back to Chanthaburi, right?" Team asked suddenly as if he remembered something. Win nodded again. Suddenly Team felt seated and returned to crying out loud. Win was shocked by what had just happened in front of him. He continued to hug Team. "Team, I'm sorry Team but please stop being like this. I'm sorry because everything that happened was my fault, but please don't be like this. It's not good for your health, Team." Win continued to hug Team tightly without any intention of wanting to let go. Win heard like Team is saying something but it's not clear. "Did you say something Team?" Win put his ear close to Team's mouth.

"It's all my fault. I'm the real cause of his death. I'm the real cause of my aunt and uncle's death. If I didn't force them to come back that day, all this wouldn't have happened. I'm the cause of everything. HIA WOULDN'T DIE IF I DIDN'T FORCE HIM BACK! " Team screamed while holding Win's collar.

"Team calm down, don't be like this. It's not your fault, it's all P's fault, please Team don't be like this, I don't care if you want to hate me but please stop hurting yourself. Release that anger on me. Please, stop torturing you mentally and physically. " Win tries to stop Team from hitting himself. Win knows that Team blames himself upon learning of Boun's death. To be honest he was hurt of seeing Team blaming himself. He tries to stop Team but Team still tortures himself. Although he was able to stop Team from hurting himself physically yet he was not able to stop it mentally.

"P, can you leave me alone? It's not my time to need persuasion from anyone. P, please leave me alone." Team begged. "Team, I can leave you alone but that doesn't mean I'll be away from you. I'll wait at the front, and you can spend your own time close in. But please don't do stupid things, you still want to know where they are buried, right? You must want to meet them even in different circumstances, right? Promise with P, Team that you won't do stupid things that will hurt yourself?" Win begs Team to stop hurting himself. Team stared at Win blankly. He was tired, he couldn't hear clearly what Win was saying. He's hard to figure out clearly. He had just lost the figure of a brother to himself, a figure he had once loved. "Team! I won't leave you alone, I'm scared. Please allow me to take care of you." Win is worried about Team's situation; he can't afford to leave Team alone when Team is just silent when Win needs a reply from Team.

Suddenly everything is dark for Team. Team fainted, falling into Win's arms.

To be continued.