To you, My Almost | Lipsoul

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A/n: This book is dedicated to [ chrryhye. ]  song of this chapter: (to get the feels) crying over you by honne beka

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Context:

Today is... August 29th, exactly a year and 3 days since we met. I wanted to give a surprise...in 2 days, but. Today, we met our end.

Entry:

I'm not a liar, I'd known from the start. But I'd never thought what would lead us to our end would be what made our fates intertwine, a story, my story.

A story idea made with my friend. Caused us to meet, she read that story.

A story made with my friend. Caused her secrets to surface.

" I wonder how people who continues to date someone, for example their friend yet have someone they love and loves them back, feels." Without knowing I had just revealed your story, I tweeted it, asking for your opinion

You agreed it was an asshole.

" I relate to this girl, she's basically like me and you with the person"

The girl was so...flirty, smooth. Yet when she met who she loved she gave that up, and focused on them...

But you replied after. " Am I talking about myself?" I questioned.

No way...

But it was all true.

Somehow, I can't find it in myself to be mad. I love you, mayhaps even too much.

But it was my fault, you had loved her, and I was simply the other choice, a backup plan.

All I'd hoped for Jung, was that you at least loved me.

Final comment:

Like dominos the lies fall, like fire, I'd set off the bomb waiting to explode.

Like water, the truth washed over me.

Like death, I became empty.

Like a void, my heart yearned for emotion

Like a puzzle, the pieces unfitting.

Yet we were happy, even if we were never supposed to or allowed to fit. We were part of one puzzle, and that. Made me happy.

Extra's:

Even as I lay here, tears tainting my face, red swelling under my eyelids, I love you. Even as you talk happily with her, I lay here. Happy with the memories shared.

Even as I'm alone, I feel loved. Even though I wasn't.

------------ because I love you.-------------

A/N

How was the first chap? Just thought I'd give back story you know. To how they left each other, they were never dating. But their feelings, thoughts,words,actions... Spoke louder than labels.

Leave comments, if you had anything you want to add into the story, go ahead! I'm a very flexible writer lmao.

Right here's a introduction to the lip and soul in this story.

Jinsoul:

Age: whatever was the age you imagine her to be, sure.

Profession: student, working student

Hobbies: drawing, music, kpop, loves singing, guitar and bass clarinet enthusiast. Acting like a child, acting like an adult, being a free therapist

Hates: bitter gourd. People who don't keep at least 20% of promises. People who don't believe in logic. SCHOOL

Random info: she's dated alot in her life, but really came to settle down on Jungeun. Was your resident baddie who had girls liking her, but is a soft child who doesn't want to hurt anyone. Make her hate you, and she hates you. A pisces, at least modeled after a pisces lmao

Jungeun. Kim lip.

Age: again, whatever. Except 1 or two years younger than soul.

Profession: student

Hobbies: drawing, watching anime, kpop, reading stories (she doesn't write) watches movies, Netflix enthusiast, valorant lover cat lover, honestly low-key a furry.

Hates: disrespectful people, people who hates animals, school and douchy guys.

Random info: meow, is short (in this story yes) like, shorter than yeojin short. Taller than Nako tho. Loves drawing, procrastination galore. Has a girl friend and also had Jinsoul. Wowwwwwww shy at first, has a lot of friends and is very awkward.

To the next chapter we go! Btw Jinsoul won't write in her diary daily, so the dates will definitely jump alot.