A/n: song of the chapter!! : Nikes by Jake Miller
Context:
It's... 30th august. She's blocked me, everything... Everywhere, I've dmed her, saying I'm not bad but I've been left on read... Haiz.
Entry:
Today we had to write a story about love. Oh god I'd tried so hard not to cry, I still did.
Love, oh love. What is love, is it like movies? The fluttering of your heart, the twisting, churning and Butterflies in your stomach, I wonder?
Love, the word reminds me of you. To me, you are love. You are...my version of love.
Love, is advertised so innocently, so beautiful, pure... And ethereal. Our time was, hauntingly immortal, I don't think I could ever forget a moment I spent with you, Jungeun.
I'd always wondered if I was good enough, I still do. I blame you leaving on myself, after all you were younger. After all, I was the extra addition
Would it have been easier to act as if I didn't know? I don't think I can do that...
I love you, but not enough to let you do that to me. But god...oh god...
I still got your drawings, still here on my phone, do you remember? I drew you, but never showed you. You drew me, oh so so so many times...
You drew yourself, always my backgrounds, even as my lockscreen changes I made sure every 5 screens one of your drawings would pop up.
I tried so hard for you to love me...
Kris tal, like a crystal our love was so beautiful, so shining, yet fragile. Fragile oh so much like glass.
Would things change if I wasn't like this?
Would things change if I had met you earlier? Would it if I had met you a year before?
Would it change if I made you fall deeper and deeper for me and wasn't scared of hurting you?
I wonder, would I be here, if I didn't love you?
I love you Jung. I still do, in the past, yesterday, today, the present. Tomorrow, the future. I'll love you.
I'll miss you, from 5 am when I wake up, to 4 am when I sleep.
Oh, sleep. Being in love with you let me sleep well you know? My 4.30 am sleep became 12 am, 1 am. Thanks to you.
Hahaha... And now, it's back to where I was. Too happy I assume, god deemed I was too happy for someone like me
Final comment:
Oh, Persephone, so beautiful... So loveable, will you return to me,
my love?
I can wait, be it a month, 2,3, or 6. But at the end of it all, love, would you come back to me?
Love, oh Persephone you Are my love. My love infused in one being, oh Persephone, I love you.
You're up on the overworld now, with her.
But...oh Persephone, will you return to my arms when the end of the year comes?
Oh Persephone... I love you, from the deepest depths of my heart, deeper than this underworld I rule. I love you, my love.
Love reminds me of you, you are my form of love.
Oh, love. Persephone my love, I miss you. And I'll wait, but please... At the end of the day, return to me.
Extra's:
Oh love... Such a...pure word.
I love you, I'll love you today, tomorrow, 2 years from now.
But I will move on, be it 10 years from now.
all I hope for, is when that time comes, you won't regret leaving me.
Why? Because once I stop loving you, I don't think I can bring myself to love you again, my love.
Oh my love, be happier with her, happier than you were with me.
So you won't regret anything.
[End]
A/N: was crying while writing this, so I'm sorry if I couldn't get the emotions across.
Here's an explanation to the format of the story.
Context is well- the context, what brought Jinsoul to write in the diary today.
Entry is just her world rambles, she talks about anything and anything related to Jungeun, some parts don't make sense, some parts only seem to work out in her head, entry is the doubt she holds, the emotions she holds spilled out like a cup of tea on homework.
The entry is the mess that is her emotions written in a way on purpose to showcase her mind going 500 kilometers an hour whenever it comes to Jungeun.
Then our final comments
Emotions written almost like a poem, but not really ( I don't write poems, so I'm just mimicking it to a degree)
It's her thoughts, her emotions written in a more formatted string of words, unlike entry where it's so many emotions all at once, the final comments focuses on one such emotion and speaks about it.
Then our extras can be seen as what she wants to say to Jungeun.
Oh "I'll love you till the future" " I'll wait for you" "don't regret leaving" it's words she wants to say but can't, basically.
Yep. Then the starting author's notes is just my song recommendation for the chapter (aka the song I was listening to while writing, but for this chap the Persephone part [written by hades pov]
Was actually " I'm in love with u, sorry" bye j'san)
The ending will be my explanations for how it's written, and I guess next chapter <in 3 weeks, I'm having my final year exams hahahaha give me good luck messages pls> will be.
Why it's written, you get all the juicy details ooOooooOo hahaha.
No names. But this is all written For someone.
My way of saying the exacts words I wanted to tell her through Jinsoul's character.
That I love you, and I won't hate you.
Goodbye viewerrrr
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I recommend the final comments and extra section if you want reference for a love letter btw
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