Tears Like Bullets

Chapter 4

Lauren's POV:

Heavy breathing & slight snoring arouses me from my sleep, and for a split second I think it's him. I begin to untangle myself from blankets & look up to find Camila instead of the boy who broke my heart. Sweet Camila, always there, always knowing what to say and what to do. We've been best friends since the beginning of X-Factor, sort of just fitting together like it was meant to be. Camila gave me this feeling of security & love that was indescribable.
I gaze upon her sleeping body, as her chest rises & falls, her mouth parted slightly. Camila was always so beautiful, in an untraditional way. I always wondered why she'd never been in a relationship; she was the total package, understanding, beautiful, intelligent. This girl had it all.
Her eyes began to flutter, and she gasps in a breath. I feel my heart beat a little faster. Why am I feeling this way? I mean I've always hated when people see me fall apart, especially Camz, I feel like I need to be strong for her. But time & time again I find myself falling apart, and Camila being there to put me back together.

"Hey Lolo, *yawns* how are you feeling?" she says, wiping a bit of drool of the corner of her lip. Her lips are pink, and so full, they look extremely soft...
"Lo?"
"shit.. uh um yea Camzi, I'm alright. I uh.. I'm just a little shaken. I mean I should've seen it coming. Actually I kind of did see it coming. Keaton tended to have wandering eyes.."
Camila's warm brown eyes were filled with remorse. Her teeth found her plump bottom lip & her eyebrows furrowed.
"He didn't deserve you Lauren."
I look up at her slowly, and there's a fire in her eyes. She's always been so passionate.
"Camz don't say that.. we both know.."
"No Lauren. I don't want to hear it again! We both know what? That you don't think you're good enough for anyone? That you don't think you're capable of true love? Beacause honestly Lauren, I'm sick of you underestimating yourself. I don't know how many times I've told you how beautiful and amazing and intelligent and perfect you are. & yes I know what you're going to say, 'Camila there's no such thing as perfect'. But you know what Lauren, you're perfect! You're the most beautiful person I've ever seen, and that I will ever see. You're so talented and smart and.."
She stumbles over her words, and I get lost looking at her eyes. Her beautiful caramel brown eyes. They have specks of a darker brown around the pupil. My eyes wander toward her lips, and the little crease in between them, how her tongue flicks over each one, and how it darts in & out of her mouth as she speaks. I'm mesmerized by her. She's grabbing my hand now.
"Please Lauren! I just wish, I wish that you could see yourself the way that I do. You deserve the world Lolo, and I.."
I quickly lean in to her & kiss her lips, softly. Her eyes open wide, and she pushes me.
"Lauren.." she says in a confused voice.
"fuck uh, I'm sorry" and I get up out of my bed, and run nervously out of the room.

hey guys, so I figured I'd update since its been nearly 2 years. damn I'm sorry 😂 i can't believe this has 5k views. thanks, and please leave comments and suggestions. love yall