Tears Like Bullets

Lauren's POV

My eyes are swollen, my cheeks are stained with tears. I feel dizzy, I think im going to throw up. I cant breathe, I cant hear, I cant see. My heart feels like its being smashed with a hammer. Its dark. Im curled up in the corner bawling my eyes out. Its cold, its so cold.. I feel like death.. and I all can think of is him. His smile, his voice, his smile, the way he walks, the way he holds me. No, the way he held me. The way he smelled, the way he laughed, and his competitive spirit. The way made my heart race, and swell at the same time just when he looked at me. The way that he kissed me..

I cant. I cant take it anymore. The tears and sobbing rack my body. I'm shaking. Why? Why doesnt he love me anymore? How come he doesnt want me? I gave him my world.. only to be shot down, kicked, then left with a shattered heart.

I stop. Take a breath. In. Out.

Breathe.

Breathe.

I can still feel the tears. They wont stop. Will they ever stop?

A tear hits my cheek. The drop is heavy. Heavier than lead.

And suddenly i know what heartache is. I know what heartbreak feels like.

I know what people mean when they say that tears fall like bullets..

There's a knock at my bedroom door, but I dont bother to answer it. The knocking continues.

"Go away" I say weakly. My voice is hoarse from the endless crying. The door creaks open and I hear a soft and comforting voice.

" Hey Lolo, I heard what happened. How you holding up?"