Forbidden love (hawks x reader)

The Man In The Hoodie (8)

(I already wrote this but the progress was lost afterwards. I am really sad about it and almost through a tantrum cuz I worked really hard on it but it's fine)

I started walking towards the hospital. After walking for a while I notice a guy following me. He wore blue jeans and a black hoodie. I couldn't see a face but didn't really think much about it. The man was still behind me. I started walking in a circle to make sure that he wasn't following me. 'shit' I think after realising he was following me. His hands were tucked into his hood and you couldn't really see a face. I took a knife out of one of my butt pockets and the man didn't even realise. I started walking faster until I reached a store and circled a bit before leaving and going to the back of the store. 'okay, I think I lost him' I think for a moment. I wanted to start walking again but suddenly felt someone grab my wrist. It was the man following me, he was looking kinda out of it. He was going to my pant and trying to loosen it before he could I cut him on his cheek with the tiny knife I was holding. He started getting mad and his grip was tightening by the second he was screaming and going crazy. I looked at him with torture seeing my father's figure in him. He the grabbed my hair and shook me around, still holding my wrist with one hand as he tries to get a hold of my neck with the one that was holding my hair. I start getting panicked as I started seeing my dad in this man and stabbed him in the throat. 'shit, shit, shit, shit' I fall to the ground with tears in my eyes and one hand on my throat. I looked for cameras and saw none. I left the man there and started running into the forest behind the store, I don't even know where I was running to I just wanted to get away from everything. The body, people, judgement and mostly memories. It felt like I was a child all over again.'My dad, my mom, my friends, everyone and everything was really fucked up.' I laugh a little while slowing my pace and feeling something move on my back, I pull the backpack off of my back and see Oreo who has fell from disynes. I pet Oreo in the bag and let my hand out of the bag looking at it. I giggle a bit and the giggle slowly turns into crying. Oreo jumped out of the bag and slipped between both my arms holding my face and licked the tears off. I look at Oreo and hug her like a little girl would hug her Teddy. I put Oreo back in the bag and walk towards the hospital again slowly wiping the tears from my face. While walking I put a grey hoodie on to hide the blood. I kinda wanna look at my wrist but I'm to scared to even think about anything, I just try to keep my mind blank and keep walking. I enter the hospital and I sighn up and walk to hawks's room. I enter the room to see him sleeping after that my thought go crazy and I fall onto the ground. I felt like I was getting a panic attack. I covered my mouth trying not to make a sound while breaking down. I wanted to scream so badly but couldn't. 'what would've happened if I didn't have the knife, would I be the one who's body would be laying there or would I have been raped or...'My thoughts were stopped when I heard a faint but worried voice "babybird?" I started making a terrified expression knowing I couldn't fake being happy after he saw me looking like this. He looked even more worried when he saw my entire face with tears and my mouth covered by my hand. He wanted to stand up and suddenly my terrified expression turned into a worried expression." don't stand up, you'll hurt yourself." I say and hawks just sits up and looks at me. "what happened to you?" he askes worried. I stand up walking to him and putting the bag on the bed " I don't wanna talk about it" I say looking at my bruised hand. My hand had been held so tight that I couldn't even feel anything in the wrist. I could also see some blood, it was mine. I got worried but didnt show any emotion. "who did this?" hawks asks agryly. I just stay silent. Hawks grabs my hand and I start to feel the pain again "OW?!!! Watch it hawks!!!" I say panicked. "NOT UNTIL YOU TELL ME WHO DID THIS!"hawks screams with anger.
" your hurting me, let go, please" I say but quiqly realise he isn't even listening." Hakws..... " I say with an emotionless voice that caught his attention."..... Let go " i say still calm but in a lot of pain. He quiqly realises what he is doing and let's go. " I'm so sorry y/n I didn't even realise I was...." he just covers his mouth and then moves it to his eyes. I take his hand off of his eyes with both my hands and see him crying a little I wipe the tears off and kiss him on his head.
" While I was walking to the hospital someone was following me, I went in and out of a store to lose him and went to the back of the store, I saw that he had taken a grip on my wrist and was going for my pants, I had a knife with me in my pocket and cut him on his cheek a little and then he went bazarre and shook me with my hair and tried to get a grip on my throat. I just closed my eyes and the next moment I felt his grip on me loosen I just ran for it without looking back. Afterwards I saw blood on my clothes and..... " I say slowly breaking down hawks then takes me and pulls me onto his bed making me lay next to him. I just cried into his white doctors clothes while he was holding me tightly. After a while I went to sleep on him and when the doctors wanted to come and get me hawks stopped them.

(yes Oreo was still in the bag sleeping like a cat does. I really did like writing this again cuz in the last one I made hawks abusive and I felt like that wasn't how he would react. Second times the charm? Also this chapter is 1043 words long, jipppyyyyyyy🥳.
Have an amazing morning, evening or night byyyyyeeeeee)