Trigger warnings: sadness
Italics mean the present.
Regular text like this< means past
~ means a Flashbacks
This means phone calls or texting
Johns pov.
It's been a struggle and a adjustment having Frances living here with us. She's very well... she doesn't listen and Alex has cussed her out twice and he's my husband and she's my daughter but she shouldn't be acting that way and she's been worse with Phillip. I thought they'd bond better but I guess not.
"Pa.. can we go to the movies?"
"No Frances."
"I just want to go to the movies."
"I said no now stop asking before your grounded for a month do you hear me."
"Whatever." She scoffed
"Whatever is correct little missy now go be productive with your day."
I walked over to Alex's bedside and kissed his forehead. He was clammy and look malnourished. I picked up the towel from his bedside and wiped his face and he fluttered his eyes open.
"Hi babe." He said with his voice kinda raspy
"Hey Babygirl. How do you feel today."
"Cold, tired, dead inside."
"Babe." I sit next to him
"Sorry, I just, I don't want to fight anymore John."
"What do you mean?"
"I-I don't want to fight anymore." He whispered.
"Alexander. Your not dying. Your okay."
"John I'm not okay. L-Look at me. I'm dying."
"STOP!!" I shouted
Alex jumped a little
"J-John..." he gasped
Frances and Phillip ran into the room.
"What's going on. Why is there yelling?" Phillip asked, shaking a little bit.
"N-Nothing.." Alex said.
They walked back out the room.
"Alexander... you can't die. I need you in my life and Christmas is coming up and your birthday baby. You can make it. For me for the kids." I sobbed
"John..." he breathed out.
"Alex stay alive for me okay? For you."
"But if I can't John then what?"
"I don't know... but I can't live without you. I need you."
"John...."
"What Alex. WHAT! Stop saying my name and say something."
"I'm dying... you can't do anything about it." He cried a little
"I- you- can't..." I choked back a sob
"H-Hey remember when we went to Hawaii." He put his hand on my back.
"Y-Yeah it was fun. We went to the beach and we ate junk the whole time we were there."
"Y-Yeah and remember you ate peanuts on accident and we had to stick you with the epipen." He giggled lightly.
"Yeah. I forgot I was allergic."
"Or when we went parasailing and you screamed the whole time."
"Yeah." I laughed
"Listen John. We have good memories. If you love me you'd let me go. You'd let me move on."
"But Alex..."
"If you love me Jackie."
"I love you." I teared up
"I love you too."
A/N: uhhh How y'all holding up??
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Before you go (LAMS & Pheacker)
FanfictionSequel to: Grow as you go (LAMS and PHEACKER) As the years go by John and Alex aren't do the best as John Laurens Becomes mentally ill. Alex tries his best to make sure John can't hurt himself. Phillip is in college pursuing baseball on a scholarshi...
