Alone

Meeting Adam

Picture of Adam to the side.

I finally found out how to put pictures into the book!!

*****

Amira wakes me up before Fajr today allowing me time to get ready for the day and for her to chat my ear off.

"You can tell why I like Adam right though? Isn't he so nice?" she gushes as I fix my light blue hijab.

"Wait, I never met him Amira, you told me I was going to meet him today remember?"

"Oh ya, I forgot! Well hurry up already so we can see him!"

"Don't you think we should give him time to get ready?" I exclaim and she sighs.

"Fine." she grumbles and starts to walk out.

"Amira!" I call and she turns around. I sigh.

"I'm sorry for being a bit grumpy I'm not trying to be you know, its just when you wake me up so early I have no choice but to be!" I say and she looks disappointed.

"I know, I'm just so excited, I finally get to be happy like you and Zaryab!" she admits and I smile. Oh if only she knew.

Before we leave I hurry to the toilet and throw up the contents of my breakfast, I am really hating on this pregnancy, I wish Zaryab and I weren't fighting so I could talk to him about this but I just can't right now.

*****

At 10 we walk to Adam's house, Amira rings the doorbell and the door is soon answered by none other than Adam himself. As I stare at his emerald green eyes I can't help but look at his attractive features, his dazzling smile, his tousled hair, his lightly tanned skin.

He smiles at Amira and I quickly look down, my cheeks blazing, gosh I can't stare like that, I'm married!

"Amira, hey!" he says in a deep voice, "You must be Aleena, Amira has told me all about you." I blush even more but manage to bob my head. He smiles at me and I hear a faint little laughter behind him. Amira peeks behind him and I stare a little more at Adam while he watches Amira.

"Amira play with me!" Abehaa playfully exclaims with a twinkling in her voice.

"Of course! You know I can't say no to you!" she walks inside with Adam's little sister leaving me alone with Adam.

"So are you here for the wedding?" he asks and I nod a little.

"It will be amazing, but I think I need your help." he says and I look at him quizzically.

"I want it to be a surprise for Amira so I am planning it myself, but I don't know what she likes, obviously I just can't ask her and I can't ask her mother either! I need to ask someone who is close to Amira but won't tell her my ideas, for the secret, can you help me?" he asks and every part of me screams no but I end up nodding my head. It is for Amira, I want her wedding to be perfect.

By the time Amira comes back, Adam and I are sitting on the patio, talking about their wedding, in full depth conversation.

"Are you ready to go Aleena?" she asks and I nod. We say our goodbyes and walk back to Amiras house.

When I go to sleep that night all I can think of are his emerald green eyes staring intensely at me.

*****

I told him to come over to Amira's house when he wanted to do the planning. And now he is at the door. I do not want to open the door to that guy but I can't leave him stranded outside, I asked him to come but now I am re-evaluating. Well, he does need my help.

"Aleena!" Zaryab calls and I hear some thumping on the stairs. Ahhh. I pull on my jacket and run out the door. When Adam sees me running he runs as well and we run all the way to his house. By the time we get there we are both out of breath. He doesn't ask why we were running and for that I am grateful.

"Alright then, why don't we start with what you already have." I say trying hard not to look in those beautiful eyes. He sits me at a table with papers and sketches, I pick up the sketches of detailed dresses and decorations.

"Did you draw these?" I ask and he nods, staring at me. I stare back. I quickly look away, haraam Aleena stop this he is your best friend's fiancee and here you are drooling all over him!

God I don't even like him, yes you do like him, no I don't, yes you do, SHUT UP BRAIN! This is haraam! I whisper.

"If you don't mind answering what is haraam?" he asks while smirking. I blush and reply a little too quickly.

"Babies."

"Tell me why are babies haraam?" he says as if he would break out laughing any second.

I quickly turn my attention onto the wedding. My best friends wedding.

"Okay so what colour venue do you want?" I ask to change the subject.

"Orange for the Mehndi, Red and gold for the Baraat and I think white and a light blue would look nice for the Walima."

"That seems nice." I say and he nods, "I think she will be happy with whatever you give her. I think I should leave now anyways." I say and I get up.

"Please, stay Aleena I would be lost without you, and you have only been here for a little bit!" Adam says and I turn around. I get lost in his green eyes. Suddenly I stop, this is haraam I am married!

"How dare you, you odious beast! You're trying to trap me in your lies when you are about to marry Amira! We are talking about your wedding! Oh my, I have allowed Shaytan to penetrate my resolve, please Allah forgive me." I say and start to cry. This was completely haraam and I knew that, I let myself go when I am usually so reserved and am never seen alone with a guy i'm not married to!

"Aleena stop crying!" he says but I keep going, yelling and crying, I can't stop.

"I know that I have been haraam today and yesterday, Shaytan was controlling me, but now I have snapped out of it! I love Allah way more than I could ever love you! You need to love Amira as she will one day love you, you have to keep her happy when you marry her!" I say as I back away towards the front door.

"Aleena please stop crying, just relax, it doesn't matter if I have a crush on you or anyone else, it is completely okay, I am going to refuse to marry Amira anyways." he says matter of factly.

"What?" I whisper and he laughs.

"You think I would actually want to marry her?! Look at her!"

The sound of my hand making contact with his skin makes me happier than I could have ever been with him.

"How dare you speak of Amira like that! She is an amazing, wonderful girl and you WILL change your mind, you already accepted the proposal, Abehaa loves her, and she will be heartbroken if you back out now! You will not back out of this proposal, you won't do anything haraam, and insha'allah, you will come back to the path of Islam!" I realize I'm not yelling at Adam anymore, I'm yelling at Zaryab. I want him to come back to Islam, I want him to not be haraam and I want him to love me. I start crying even harder and Adam looks taken aback, I guess he has never had a girl yell at him before.

"You're right, I will get married to Amira and make her happy, she will be good for me I know. I am so sorry for offending you Aleena." he says slowly and lowers his head. I nod and wipe my eyes with my sleeve.

"I'm going to go now, good luck planning." I say and I leave as quickly as I came.